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Ain't that long

2007-11-11T17:49:00.000+08:00

Just before you know it, we're sitting for the last O Level Paper tomorrow. And I'm like 'O Level is ending so fast?' And we thought we were waiting for a long one month for the whole thing to end. Now, I think everybody is in the holiday mood to bother to do MCQ practices for tomorrow. Well maybe some. But Im definitely in the holiday mood.

Grad night stuffs are all prepared, except for my mum who is going the extra mile to find something for me to cover up my shoulders in the sleeveless dress. I don't really give a shit that much because I already bought an ugly shawl and I'm probably forced to cover up unless it gets cold in the hotel.

These few days have been really shitty. Went shopping for a few days to get my pocket burned and shit comes when you get home. My nail polish's been confiscated when I see nothing wrong with wearing it when I have the remover. I cant pierce my ears. They're not happy with my dress and blah3. I cant wait to dye my hair tomorrow night and I'll see if anyone else is gonna hate me for it. After grad night, I'm so gonna cut my hair short and see people's reactions on Friday in school. I'm still deciding whether to go for the 3-weeks course next year or not. And I just really really hope that my operation will be cancelled. Well you know how fcuking lazy I can be.

I wanna go Grad night! =) And ya, Selamat Hari Raya again coz this is the last day.

happyyy....

2007-10-27T21:23:00.000+08:00

Finally, after 1 month plus, I decided to update coz I feel so happy right now!
Anyway, I didnt update for so long coz I was busy with O's preparation, Hari Raya and other stuff. So many things have been happening for the past one month. It's quite sad for me that I didn't get to share all of them on this blog straightaway. Of course, many of them are good stuff that makes my life so colourful.

Firstly, this year's 12 October is a very special day for me and him. Coincidentally, it falls on Hari Raya eve, the last day of lessons for Sec 4s, and also Sarali's 2-year anniversary. Although our anniversary celebration wasnt as grand as last year, it's still a very special day indeed. Most of the Malays of 4D and I enjoyed making ketupats out of ribbons for the last 2 days of the fasting month. I ended up making lots of them even during lessons, and gave them away to those who asked from me. We also received some letters and chocolates from our friendly and thoughtful classmates on the last day of lessons. It was such a heart-warming day. Now I feel so old because spending time in TK seems to be so fast and here we are already taking O's and graduating very soon. I'm gonna miss the school and so many people. So many sweet and bitter memories... No wonder WR cried. =P

Hari Raya was fun! Got so much $$$! But not as much as the previous years. Oh. There was a school bazaar on Thursday. Me, Ali and a few others were the only sec 4s who bothered to walk around to see the bazaar. Quite surprising to see the school being so chaotic. But it was very nice and creative. So many different things around. Ali bothered to take neoprints with his juniors and another extra teacher, Irene Chen. She even paid for them! WTF! Make me so jealous.

Anyway, O Level papers have been okay so far except for History, which I sort of give up. The only scary one left is English which is on Monday.

My bloody phone find trouble again on Wednesday. Dunno how the hell, it dropped into a basin of soap water! Dammit! So it went bonkers and I was with a dead phone the whole day. Luckily my mum had a spare phone, which is a better model but is also half crazy. Just now, I checked my totally crazy phone. And surprisingly, it's now okay! Not crazy anymore. Yay! So far, it's been dropped into a basin of soap water twice this year and survived both accidents! Hehe. But anyway, I'm in the process of persuading my parents to buy me a new phone with a new line. I hope I'll get that sexy silver samsung one.

Another thing that made me happy today was knowing that my cousin Kak Izah got engaged secretly just now! Haha. My mum told me just now coz she actually went to witness it while I stayed at home the whole day. And there were only about 3-4 families of my relatives there. I dunno why, but I feel happy after knowing it. Certainly not because Kak Izah gave me a super nice chocolate cake. Haha. I'm happy for her. Hope she gets married and settles down soon. And give me more nieces and nephews! There goes our member of the anak dara gang..

I so cant wait for O's to end. Then we'll meet everybody for the last time during Graduation Night. And after that, is my appointment at the hospital, waiting for the doc's final say on whether to go on with the operation or not. Hopefully they will cancel it because the whole world is against it. Even Ali has been whining that he doesnt want it to be carried out. Anyway, thanks a lot to everyone who has been praying that this operation will not go on.

I miss you very much Nyai...

i miss them...

2007-09-15T21:16:00.000+08:00

I've been feeling kinda guilty for the past few weeks. Guilty for not meeting my cousins and close relatives for a long time. It's been more than 2 months since I last caught up with all of them. I've been absent for so many gatherings. And this is what Prelims and O's do to me.

I miss them. Gosipping, joking around, laughing at the cute little cousis, drawing henna on so many hands...
Finally, after most of the paper 2 are over, I can attend the gathering again tomorrow. It'll be fun with them around. Out of the 60 over of my direct relatives, those 20 plus are the most adorable ones. The 2005 KL gang. Hehe. If only nyai was still around... Miss her so much.

zzzz...

2007-09-12T21:28:00.000+08:00

Prelims are on. We're dead. I'm tired.

Monday's SS was okay, though I screwed up my second essay. A Maths was almost okay to me coz I didn't do a few questions.
Tuesday's E Maths made my day! I'm happy, its very do-able. Chem was quite difficult this time, but for me, its still quite okay. A1 is possible.
And today's Physics almost killed me. GPG must have set the paper because it sucks. We studied so much, so little things were tested. Very few out of so many formulas were tested. Just one word to describe - wth!

2 more heavy papers before I can relax a lil bit, which is Geog and History. I just really hope that these 2 papers won't kill me.

I'm actually very tired tonight coz I've been staying up late for the past 2 days. Monday night was spent studying Chemistry, Tuesday night was for Physics. It's really a disadvantage that I don't have the stamina to stay up and just hang on. That's why I'm already so tired now although it's only been 3 days.

Anyway, this will be over soon, yet not that soon. Still got O Levels, fasting month, and still have to resist the temptation to go shopping for Hari Raya. So many things going on in these 2 months. Now I don't feel like going for 3 months course.

Btw, there was an earthquake and tsunami just now. Indon gets hit again, with scalar of about 8.5, twice. It's quite bad this time. Don't know why, some news say it was 7.9, some say 8.0 or 8.5. I guess more news will be out by tomorrow.

And we'll all be fasting tomorrow. Hari Raya mood coming soon. :)

Mug mug mug

2007-09-06T18:36:00.000+08:00

The previous post was not written by me, but by Alsyaari. He was apologising to me for making me fall on a very rough ground just now, till my knee was almost bleeding. Anyway, its ok now. You're forgiven. :)

I'm actually at MP library now since 11 plus in the morning just now. Yup, studying as usual with him and some other TK people who are here as well. I've been coming here with him since last Sunday and maybe its damn good for us to be studying here since there's motivation from many other TK sec 4s who are studying so diligently. And I've also been using his aunt's laptop for the past 5 days. It's very useful coz I can type SS notes and I wanna buy one for myself. If only I have my own laptop now..

SS is making me nervous coz I've been studying only Theme 5, with 6 essays. Wth. And I'm still not done studying all of the essays. Urghhh.. To think that it is only half a subject. There's still Hist and the very heavy Geog, not forgetting A Maths. Our 2 months break is 2 months away... =(

And official lessons are all over.

Btw, a few days ago my mum said that she'll buy for me a new phone if I go to VJC next year. If she really really mean it, then I can forget all about it. I might as well save up and buy a new phone myself. But I don't think she means it. Coz she's the best mum, and I think she'll still buy me a new phone if I go to ITE. Haha. Jk...

2007-09-06T15:04:00.000+08:00

I am sorry for what happened just now.
Will u forgive me?

Prelims and O's

2007-08-24T21:16:00.000+08:00

The studying fever is finally here, I swear. I can't believe that it's only about a month more to our O levels. How I know? Becoz of Atiqah's blog. I'm like so scared now, I can cry just thinking of how close all these exams are. If only we don't have to go through all these. If only..... I can just run away and escape from all these. If only..... I was smarter and more hardworking so that I don't have to revise so much. If only...... combined humanities were more interesting, with better and more interesting teachers. If only...... I can survive with lesser sleep so that I won't fall asleep in class. If only..................................... and the list goes on. In other words, I believe many people out there are just like me, pressurised by each second that pass, thinking and thinking of how we're gonna handle the stress of having to face exams after exams after studies after revisions after practices and the list goes on.

Good news is that our school has finally started the night study for us! I'm really pleased by this night study thing coz it's very effectve. It's actually from 5.30 to 9.30 but some people were already there at 2.30 if they don't have any lesson. It helps alot coz at least I feel so damn motivated to study since the place is so quiet, comfortable and it seems like the whole world is studying. So you might as well don't be extra and study as well. Then you'll be able to focus very well unless some idiots around are making noise.
Speaking of idiots, there were a couple of idiots in the MRL yesterday who were making so much noise and disturb others. Actually, it wasn't much noise but it was very disturbing for me so I just had to raise my voice in the MRL to ask them to shut the fcuk up since I was damn pissed.
Anyway, since the night study is damn good, I might stay back everyday from Monday to Thursday so that I have the motivation to study. I shall be a nerd now and feel proud of it. :)

As you can see now, my life is temporarily in a 'no life' stage coz my whole world right now is filled with books, stationeries, notes, files, studies, library, MRL, classrooms, school, blah3. And I shall be proud of it because I shall consider that this is actually 'life'. That means, all those taking O's this year who are not mugging like TK students have 'no life'.

At the same time, it's saddening to think that I'm actually gonna leave the school next year. I'll surely miss TK, friends, teachers, canteen vendors and many others. :(

Anyway, Happy Mugging everyone. :)

Happy National Day

2007-08-09T15:45:00.000+08:00

Singapore is finally 42 years old today. Yay. I don't even know what's so good about that. Anyway, I'm quite pissed off today. Just asked a simple question and she just had to reply so long, so many things that are so unrelated to my question. So much nagging, blabbering, blah3s. But yet, she didn't even answer my question. WTF lah. That's it. I can forget about asking her such questions.

This stoopid incident just had to spoil my mood for today that I have no motivation to study now, as planned. I wish these small lil things or conflicts will just disappear away from my life just for the next 3 months, so that I can concentrate properly for O's and prelims. It's freaking the whole world out, just to know how close Prelims are. There's about 3 more weeks to go. Some people are panicking while I'm trying not to. Maybe for once, I shall just be super thick-skinned and heartless so that nothing much will affect my concentration.

Yet at the same time, I feel happier with myself now that I've started to settle down and start proper revision. But I'm so not satisfied yet. I think I really need to be a super nerdy nerd for once by digging my nose into books and notes everyday. Then I'll feel so much better that I'm not slacking as usual. He's been helping me alot for Physics also. And that'll make me feel better too. I just hope I will feel better by tonight so that I can study. What's for sure is that I'm gonna study again tomorrow and I'll make sure I'll be in front of the MP library at 9.59am, waiting for it to open. Maybe for once, I should feel damn sad if I'm still not a nerd yet. And that means that I'll be happy being a nerd. All the best to me and to all my beloved Sec 4 schoolmates going through this same thing over and over again. I hope the school library will open at night for us to study. I think it's a damn good idea. Good luck to me and Selamat Merdeka to Singapore! :)

Smarty!

2007-07-31T22:13:00.000+08:00

Today is surprisingly my 'hardworking' day. I don't know why but I really feel so hardworking today. And it's good to know that it is a good feeling to finally be hardworking....though I fell sleep for English just now.

First of all, I felt quite good for the day coz I spent hours studying Geog yesterday, typing the whole Plate Tectonic notes but leaving out Settlement studies. And this revision really made me feel so good today coz it's quite unlike me to not study secretly during lessons or in between periods or even during recess or just before the test. I felt more prepared. And I really hope to get at least a B for today's test since I've been getting C or a fail. :)

Secondly, I went home super late today thanks to my beloved sayang. I reached home at almost 9pm and this for sure wasn't a bad thing for me. Because Geog lecture ended very late at 5 plus just now. Then me and Ali went to eat Mee Kuah at Parkway, and we went to MP library as promised. My sayang then very patiently taught me several Physics topics that I really didn't understand. I'm quite lucky that he is patient enough to tolerate my endless confusion and weird questions. And now, I really understand everything. Though we only spent like less than 2 hours in the library, it was worth it to go home late. I feel so much better and happier to have finally understood some Physics stuff thanks to him. Then we went home together and home sweet home. Yayy! I guess if I continue to study Physics with him, I might get my A1 for Physics, which I never dreamt of. Haha! I love you dear! Thank you! :D

Weekend!

2007-07-21T18:24:00.000+08:00

First of all, I got a surprise on Tuesday morning. Yups. I was supposed to meet Alsyaari at Bedok Int before going to school at 6.45am. And then when I was waiting for him, I saw someone I haven't seen in more than a year!! And he is my long lost historical big heart-throb/crush, Nasir! Haha. It was a pleasant surprise for me and I was reminded of my crazy times in Sec 1/2, obsessed over this skinny dude who happens to be my RC senior as well. Anyway, he saw me, we waved, smiled and he walked away but I was still there, waiting. And I was thinking, should I approach him and ask for his new number? Thinking and thinking for a few minutes, then finally Ali came along and we went off to take 33 to school. Aww... A wasted chance. It's been so hard meeting him. But at least now I know that he takes the bus from that particular bustop to go to school and maybe we can meet again. Hehe.

I'm planning to do big-time or large-scale mugging tomorrow. And maybe that's why I've been slacking the whole day today. Watched some videos at Youtube and thought maybe I could put some of my favourite ones here but can't. Hais...

Anyway, Alif Aziz won!! Yayy. He's only 16 and he's got the big big talent to win as a Champion for Anugerah 2007! I'm so glad that Roslan or Nuwarah didn't win. And Maiya is only 18 when she looks like 20 plus. Urghh..

Another random comment from me. I seriously look down on smokers. No matter who they are, or whatever their status. They can be as smart as a MASTERS or PHD holder but they're damn bloody stupid to get hooked on cigarettes. Smokers are like idiots coz they're stupid to go on a slow process of committing suicide and contributing to global warming. Not only are they killing themselves, but also the whole world. Now that I can't help it that my dad's a smoker, I swear that in future, I'll never ever marry a smoker and I'll make sure there's no cigarettes in my house at all. Not even a peck of dust of cigar. Yes, that's how strong my hatred towards cigarettes is. I'm now semi-allergic to it coz I just can't stand it.

Another random comment. I think I was quite lame to say that "any girl who is afraid of balls will never get married". It just came to my mind when I was reminded of some girls in my class who would always dodge the flying volley ball, and I thought these girls have a phobia of balls? Then maybe they'll never get married. Hehe. And then during PE, we were all impressed and surprised when Victoria whacked a volley ball (something she doesnt always do). And then I thought, now that she's gotten over her fear, she'll whack more balls when she gets married. Haha. I know it's lame.

One more random comment. Ali was right. We should all change to our uniform during recess, after PE. I just realised on Thursday that only a handful of my classmates actually change to full uniform after PE. The rest were either in half-u or PE attire. And I was quite disgusted coz the whole class stinks as a whole!! Yeah. Even though t-shirts are a lot comfortable, it's so not a good idea to remain in the same t-shirt after PE coz you've sweat a lot and yet you refused to change. I'm not saying that every single person who remained in the same smelly t-shirt stinks, but the class as a whole was so smelly. It kinda disgust me. Eww.. Sad thing, we have to study in a smelly environment, sharing the same classroom. Urghh...

Okay. I guess that's all for this week. I'll probably update again the next weekend or 2 weeks later.

:)

2007-07-07T15:50:00.000+08:00

Finally, you see an update after like 3 weeks..

So many things have been happening, weighing on my mind, wanting to blog about it but haven't got the chance. Even if there is, I would forget.

No more holidays for the Sec 4s (according to TKH) until the end of O's and everything. But even then, I would have to stay in the hospital for a bloody boring one week thanks to this malleable spine of mine. For now, I guess it's really the start of mugging for us. So I guess there should be lesser updates here. And as for me, I plan to start mugging this weekend and hopefully, keep up the momentum till what it seems like forever.

One permanent impact on me is the stepping down of the RCY NCO's 06/07. Although it's nothing much actually, I'm gonna miss the RC room. I'm now starting to feel very old. Coz we're like retired from RCY. So whatever happens in RCY now, I'm not that bothered anymore. Coz it's all done and over. My time's up. Time to get something else new in JC! :)

A few days ago, there was a talk about ACJC. And I didn't expect it to a damn good JC. Almost everything is like focussed on academic. They've got some super freaky students going to Oxford Uni and Harvard Uni. How crazier can that be?? It makes me feel dumber although some other people think I'm "smart" to be in TK. But the good thing is that their presentation is very good. It opens our eyes to see the real world. Then I realised that there are a lot more freaking smart genious in the world that just the good academic TK school. It really makes us feel damn small.

Speaking of smart people, I just remembered my dad saying this to me last time, "How far you can go, just go." Obviously he's talking about education. Then I'm thinking... If that's what he really meant, what if I become so overly smart to go to RJC?? Then I'll move on to Oxford Uni in London?? Then I'll be studying till the age of 30 plus to get MASTERS and PHD?!?! Is he still gonna sponsor all that for me? I would feel as if I'm living off him. And will he still say the same thing again?? Haha. I'm not saying that all these will happen. But it may happen, since I'm so ambitious. I think most TK students have the potential to go that far. Whatever it is, we'll just continue mugging for now and see what we've got and where we'll go next. =)

Anyway, last week, Ms Erma made us go to this website http://oscar.nie.edu.sg to see what job/career is suitable for us. And what I got is some ulu job like biochemist and buyer. I don't even know what the hell that job was about. But there's only one job that they give me, which I might consider, which is Science Teacher. Lol. But I'll never be the next TKH.

I guess that's all for the update. Lazy to update about more stuff. Happy mugging! :)

holidayyyyyyy

2007-06-14T13:49:00.000+08:00

I'm so bored bored bored. So in the holiday mood. Yet not. I've been staying home for the past few days. Nothing much to do. Homework? Nahh.. Who likes to do homework? I'm losing the mood for studying, thinking of Prelims and O's. But I guess I'll get into the mood again when school suddenly pops up in my life out of nowhere. I'm also getting quite tired of going out. Don't know where to go, what to do, who to meet, blah3. I can't wait to slack my ass out during RCY camp next week. I heard that there'll be a buffet for the Sec 4s since we're getting old and graduating. Bleargh..

There's some Electronics Course tomorrow at Ngee Ann Poly. Now I can't wait to go there coz at least there's my classmates around. Except for a few irritating ones that I'm so not excited to meet. Hehe.. But luckily, my sayang will also be going with my class! That's another thing to look forward to. I just hope it won't be boring coz I'm quite sure nobody knows what the whole course is about.

I guess if I'm kinda excited to meet my classmates, I might as well get excited to go to school and get surrounded by teachers or our so-called reminders about the coming Prelims and O's. :)

And I'm going to Jurong East Swimming Complex next week! It's not confirmed, though... :)

1st post in June

2007-06-11T14:47:00.000+08:00

It's been quite long since I last updated. Simple reason of me being lazy and nothing much to blog about.

Truncated lessons are finally over. While the other kids already had 2 weeks plus 1 day of holiday, the poor Sec 4s of TK only started our holidays. Sad right? And within this 2 weeks left, we're expected to do a lot of things like clearing all our messy books and papers, revising for O's, doing homeworks, blahblahblah.. Not forgetting the whole day Electronics course at Ngee Ann Poly this Friday and my 'beloved' TKRCY camp next Wed to Fri. I don't even feel the holiday.

Yesterday was not that bad for me. The whole day was sort of family day. I followed my mum and sis to the library and this funny Yayah said something funny which was "Putih belegam". And then me and my mum said, "Hitam melepak!" Lols. Wth lah.. In the evening, we finally ate the yummy Ikan Bakar at the stall called 'ALI IKAN BAKAR'!! Yumm. Like finally, after so many months, we ate there. My stomach was gonna burst already. Then after that, we went jalan2 at Bedok till night. Oh, I forgot. I got my mum to buy for me the Shrek ears from McD! Haha. My sis got one also. Lol.

Today is really boring. Like super boring. I just thought maybe for once, I shall not go out. But I ended up lazing around at home. Tomorrow is the 12th! 1 year 8 months! 20 months! =D

Happy Holidays!

234th post

2007-05-31T19:18:00.000+08:00

I'm quite bored. Went out for almost the whole day with my family just now. Visited the cemetry, went to eat yummy nasi goreng and mutton soup, went to Audio House near Mr Tan KH's house and then went to Changi Chapel Museum for fun. It was bloody hot in the afternoon, and pouring heavily in the evening. Wth. I'm quite tired now. And how I dread going to school again tomorrow..

True indeed. Polar bear is tired...

studies, studies, studies.....

2007-05-30T17:49:00.000+08:00

Finally.. It's gotten done and over with. The mother tongue O level paper 1 and 2 are finally over on Monday. Well, for now..at least. Now we're gotta concentrate on other subjects as well as MT oral and listening compre. And that will come in June and July. Wth. I wonder why they must spread everything out till it becomes like one exam(not one subject) per month. And then we have a few more months to worry till our MT O Level results come in August, before we see if we must still retake the exam again at the end of the year. Hais...

Okay.. I admit the paper was quite tough, even though I've been doing okay for Malay. I'd be really really happy if I get A1. But for now, I think I can get like borderline A2??? Hais.. I have a feeling that we're gonna disappoint Cikgu Suriyani. Not that she's demanding but we all just love her. =) I hope she's coming for our Grad Nite though I doubt so.

Another misery that we're all facing as a cohort. Our bloody holidays are reduced and condensed to like half?!?! Yes. All these thanks to stoopid truncated lessons for 2 bloody weeks. And not forgetting, we still have to revise for O's during the short 2 weeks we have left. So that means we have a REAL holiday for only ONE WEEK!!!
Mr Tan KH also said that this will be our last holiday. Coz after this, no September holiday for us. There's be lessons, revisions, tests, blahblahblah. All the way till Prelims, all the way till O's, and finally Grad Nite comes.

So far, the truncated lessons have been quite terrible. Many said that it was a waste of time. I can't say I agree but still, it sucks. 3 subjects each day, 1.5 hours each lesson, 2 short breaks. Some boring teachers. Demanding subjects. A lot of repetition. Boring... Hundreds of days commited to studies just for the sake of a couple of hours of exams just for a good-looking certificate. And all these, worth hundreds of dollars.. Oh man... Thinking of it makes me quite sick. =( =l

Blahlala..

2007-05-27T21:17:00.000+08:00

It's been kinda long since I last updated. And yes, the craze for Avril is still on. But not that much for me. I'm working on my studies now, trying to overcome and deal with the distractions as much as possible. O Level Malay Paper 1 & 2 tomorrow! Yay! How cool is that.. I don't know if I'm supposed to be sarcastic or not. But I'm kinda excited coz I can't wait to experience the feeling of having 2 major papers to be over. Not that I'm overconfident, but I think I can get A1 or at least A2. I'm still not sure if I'm gonna go for another try in case I get A2. But I just really really hope for A1. I better get it. I better do. Or else I'm gonna commit suicide!! Muahahahaha! (sarcastic)

Last Thursday, my mum came to school with a pram with Ika sitting comfortably in it and my hyper sister Yayah chirping happily as usual. What a bother, just to collect report books. Results was not up to satisfaction but I'm wondering how come my class position is 8?!?! Lena Poh just had to bitch about me so much, saying that I shouldn't be involved in unnecessary activities that would affect my sleeping time. And my mum just had to support her and all the blah3. This is what I get for studying geog so hard. Hais.. I'm not sayig that they're accusing me but I guess I just have to push myself harder. -_-"

After that, something totally unexpected happened. There was presense of totally unexpected people who approached us and gave me a total surprise and I don't know whether to say it is a pleasant one or not. All these is thanks to beloved Alsyaari's wonderful, spontaneous, last minute idea that gave me no warning at all. It was a totally unplanned surprised which came in a form of more than 30 minutes long conference meeting. Those who witnessed it, would know what I'm talking about because it actually took place in the canteen until around 4.50pm. Anyway, it wasn't that bad afterall. I just hope all other people involved would not spoil anything. =)

From the shy little Sec 2s, to the open minded and more mature Sec 4s.
From short pants to show those hot legs, to the humble upper sec, covering those even hotter legs.
From innocent little kids sitting next to each other in Malay class, to naughty teens sitting 2 metres away in Sec 4 Malay class.
It's been only 1 year plus. And there's still a long way to go. saRaLi <3

2007-05-19T19:32:00.000+08:00

Avril is LOVE. I swear.
Like the typical kind of people, I also fall in love with her when her album is out with nice new songs. Damn. She's pretty and so is her voice and songs! I've been listening to them quite a lot recently. And yes, I'm hooked. :)

Finally...

2007-05-19T18:36:00.000+08:00

I've been waiting for Blogger to be ok and stabilise first before I start blogging again. Before this, the page was sort of screwed up and all over the place. Well it was still possible to blog and type but difficult for me and I can't adjust the font size. Now I can!! Finally... :)

I guess it's been a norm for us (Sec 4s) to get bad results again and again. Yeah, it's quite irritating and very disppointing I guess. But I don't know why the hell are we getting more used to it when we should be trying to improve ourselves each time. The teachers and we all know that we have the potential, yet we're not maximising it. Hais... My L1R5 and overall really sucks this time. English has been hell as usual. Geog is always screwed up coz they came up with weird questions all the time, then they keep saying that it's not difficult. The blame is always pushed to us for not studying enough and being smart enough. It's just so easy to say that 'I wanna work hard to get a single digit for O's'. Yet it seems to hard to get it. It looks further and further away to reach. :(

Yesterday's RCY training was so damn screwed and slacky. If I know that only 6 NCOs would come, I wouldn't have come and let Pau be the only girl there. But I'm not that bad lah.. Cikgu Sarina told me to go for training after the Malay mock exam, so I had to. Ms Sry looked so happy to see me. But the thing is, I couldn't believe that I really went even though I didn't bring mufti. The bad thing was that I had to take Sec 2s for footdrill. :( After training, he treat me to dinner at Banquet to thank me for something. Yay! Then I was sent home again as usual and reached home at almost 9pm! :P

This morning, we had Geog in the audi to go through our Mid Year paper 2. Ms Yap gave us a good inspirational, motivational and such a persuasive talk about our O's. Now I feel more motivated to study earlier and harder. So after that talk, I gave like 98% attention throughout the 1.5 hours lecture. The other 2% attention was spent on SMS-ing. :P

After that, went to eat Prata with him, went to Parkway to buy something, then went to library to study!! Yes, I did E Maths TYS since my maths is like getting worse. But we went home quite early since I didn't bring some stuff that I need.

Something super coincidental happened during Malay class yesterday. Me and Ali came into the MRL a bit late coz of our delayed eating time. Then Cikgu had to announced something. This is what she said.
"Saya tak tahu kenape, tapi ada di antara kamu yang belum bayar O Level fees. (looks at the list of names) Sarah......., Ali......... Ah, Sarah dengan Ali ajer. Yang lain semue dari kelas yang lagi satu."
Lols. The class was laughing and looking at us. What a coincidence. :)

I'm going out later with my mum to make new specs for myself! Yay! I'm quite excited. It's been 2 years since I owned a pair of specs. Lols.

2007-05-14T18:42:00.000+08:00

Blogger is so screwed. It's spoiling my mood to blog..

Happy Exams Week!

2007-04-30T22:44:00.000+08:00

Yay! Exams are finally here. That's something everybody's so excited about. Yet, dread them at the same time. Well to a small extent, it is something to be excited about because we should be excited for everything to start quickly and end quickly. But still, preparations and lots of obstacles(distractions) along the way. Sad me... I've become the disappointing victim of distractions again. Hais...

Geog Paper 2 today was so totally screwed up. I lost a lot of marks. Now I'm depending heavily on Paper 1 and I really hope to get a high distinction for the MCQs. Oh man. I hope this will never happen again. Well I always do. But things never seem to change distinctively. How sad..

I'm so bored, sleepy, tired, lazy. After 1 and a half years, studies seem to be becoming more and more boring. The more demanding it is, the more I feel like just not bothering. But I have to, anyway. Thank god everybody's going through this same thing, and not me alone. So we all have to overcome this together for like 6 and a half more months. Oh my goodness.....

I remembered seeing my Victorian(VS) friend's personal message on MSN. 'Life is so boring. MOE should start O Levels tomorrow.'
So what do you think? Actually, I sort of agree. But I'm not that crazy to fully agree, DUH! Life is quite boring because of our tight schedule, always mugging like crazy, not bothering about homeworks, having to sacrifise our good night sleep just for a test, blah3. Aren't we sick of this? Who isn't? We're so tired of going through all this rush while waiting for 6 more months to come. So we should wish that time would fly faster so that everything doesn't seem to be crawling, yet running at the same time. But on the other hand, disagree because we're not prepared yet, DUH! Oh man... This is like an endless wait.............

Anyway, Happy Exams Week to everybody!

It attracted my attention

2007-04-21T21:18:00.000+08:00

I was just looking through the names of online people on MSN and i was attracted to Fiona(TDW)'s personal message.

If kisses were water, I'd give you a sea; If hugs were leaf, I'd give you tree; and if you're true and sincere to me, I'd keep all my love for thee.

nice line. (:

Give me some activation energy...

2007-04-20T22:17:00.000+08:00

SS test tomorrow. Not forgetting Chemistry SPA that I missed on Wednesday. Hais. Looks like we're starting to need to go back to school on Saturdays. Which means lesser rest because we still have to study on Friday nights when I'm already so used to looking forward to the most perfect sleep of the week on Friday nights.

*sighs* Exams coming in exactly one week. Any preparations going on? I doubt so. Even if there is, less than 10% of it. How pathetic. Can I say that I'm sick of studying? It's only Sec 4 and we're facing this crap. There's a couple of years more to go. Oh god. Help us.

I'd wanted to visit someone at the hospital today but someone else said no need so I can save all the paiseh-ness. Anyway, I hope he'll get well soon. Now I really feel sad and worried for him and his family.

Malay oral today was sort of screwed up. I don't know if Cikgu Nadira and Cikgu Sarina has been teaching the same and correct stuffs or not. I followed what Cikgu Sarina said, yet Cikgu Nadira said that I talked too much. Wth. And she said I talked like a robot because I had been thinking a lot when I was speaking. Aaah.

I've been blogging such short posts recently. Maybe I'm just too lazy and tired to update in details. I feel like abandoning this blog since nobody really tags here anyway. But life is quite boring without a blog. So should I remove my tagboard or what? It's useless and even though I know people visit my blog, they don't tag. *sighs* Is it that difficult to type a 'hi' and 'ur name' and click 'go'?

Ever since you came to my life, I didn't look back at my singlehood past anymore. Life is much beautiful with you around. You're the last piece of puzzle that fits perfectly to my incomplete puzzle of life. =)

no school!

2007-04-18T18:46:00.000+08:00

Yay for me! Actually, it's nothing to yay at all. Yep. I get to skip school today coz I had an appointment at SGH for the spine thingy. It's the last X-ray to take before the operation. And guess what? The op is postponed to November, after O's. Cool right? That's something quite tiny to yay about because at least there are lesser distractions. And also, just now when the doctor examined my X-ray, the top right curve on my spine remained the same while the bottom left curve on my spine improved by 5 degrees! That's quite amazing and I thought it was quite a big improvement coz it's very hard to try to improve it. Anyway, CONGRATULATIONS Ms Honeylicious. =)

I still feel quite guilty for skipping school today although I got no choice. Coz it's the 3rd time I had to miss Chemistry SPA(Science Practical Assesment). And it is IMPORTANT because it's counted for our O's! Damn. And I dunno why, MR Tan KH is like ignoring my absence for it. WTH. I want my SPA marks for my O's, dammit! Bluek. Now I'm wondering whether he gave back our test papers or not just now. If he did, good luck to me. I'll be the last to know my own marks. If he didn't then it should be tomorrow then.

The whole day, I've been slacking like a lazy ass. Aaaahhh. Can't help it, yet I'm feeling damn guilty. Shucks! I need to be more disciplined. And I need motivation. Hais.. I think I'm gonna either clean my room or study for Mid-Years later. I hope I'll do both. Good luck to you, Ms Honeylicious.

wtf

2007-04-15T16:26:00.000+08:00

I can say that I'm quite bored now. I'm supposed to be studying SS now but I'm not in the mood. Stupid lah. Ali sign out of MSN all of a sudden and now I don't have any motivation to continue studying when I've been so hardworking, typing SS notes while talking to him on MSN just now. WTF. Now I even find bollywood songs stupid when I'm supposed to not get bored of them.

I'm alone at home now. Everybody's out, minding their own businesses. So am I. I wanted to follow mum, bro and sis go Buangkok but I had planned to study SS. Anyway my dad is, as usual, not tagging along. So I might as well not go. Sunday is supposed to be family day, but no point going without the whole family right. WTF.

I suddenly feel so damn lonely now. Everybody got their own stuffs going on. So do I. Damn lah. I feel so life-less. Why does life seem so sucky and boring this year? We've got about 6 more months before the end of our suffering - O levels. And we're forced to overcome this ourselves with lots and lots of patience, not forgetting other factors that can distract us and pull us down.

My very small house seems so big all of a sudden especially when I'm alone.

If I had a precious diamond and silver ring that I wouldn't part with, I want you to be that ring.
Miss you.

i love you, honey

2007-04-14T21:07:00.000+08:00

Hello Ms. Honeylicious.

I hope you've been okay this week and this weekend. Still crying over the weekends? No? Maybe not yet. But I hope not at all. Yes, I know you really want to enjoy the weekend for once and make yourself happy by doing what you wanna do, and that is study. But of course not study and only study. You have a life, don't you? Yes, of course. I'm gonna tell you to do something. Or in fact, it's a warning, which means you have to do what I say. You're gonna go and study and revise for your Mid-Year exams. It's no longer near, and the whole world knows that. So do you. And so you have to and you better start your revision as soon as possible because you know that you have a lot to catch up. If you don't, the whole world is gonna be very disappointed at you. Yes. Please, you know you love me and you don't ever want to disappoint me. Don't make me hate you, honey. But at the same time, don't forget to take care of yourself. Be happy. =)

i'm writing to myself. =)

Pheww..

2007-04-12T22:25:00.000+08:00

A sigh of relief for me and the rest of my family members, especially my father. Suddenly, for no reason, the internet went crazy and we couldn't even dial-up. wth. Luckily, it's now okay. =) This comp is already slowly going crazy. Like me, it's a ticking time bomb. One day, it can crash or wadeva. Just hope it doesn't happen at the wrong time. =)

History repeats itself again. Ms Goh walked out of class a few days ago. Thanks to some childish people in class. Even Ali agrees and criticises some 4D people for being so childish and don't even know how to behave properly at the right time. Well, too bad our class consists of nearly 2 times number or boys than girls. Maybe that's why it's that bad. So should we blame Mr Tan KH then? He was the one who arranged all our classes. I think he's somehow to blamed, in a way for putting our class in such a way that there are too many guys. But the bad thing, there are too many childish guys around. That, nobody is to really be blamed because even Mr Tan KH didn't know how childish they were. Actually, our class is expected to be well-behaved. Maybe that's the problem. =P

My aluminium iodide

2007-04-09T21:00:00.000+08:00

For some reason, I find myself very random for the past couple of minutes. I've been thinking of the compund Aluminium Iodide. And what does it mean? Write down the formula of the compound and you'll know. Yups. I find myself so chemistry now. I don't know why. Just being so random. And now I'm thinking of the most stable compund, Francium Fluoride. =P

I'm supposed to be mugging geog. But I thought there's nothing much to memorise coz they seem more like common sense to me. Just need to be a little bit more creative and I can think of a lot of stuff related to the topic. I really really hope to do quite well for the test tomorrow.

Chemistry today is quite okay. Not that tough at all. But I realised through Ali that I fell for some tricks which didn't appear like tricks at all. Damn. I don't wanna disappoint myself and TKH this time. I want a much higher A1 compared to the last test, please! Will 70 plus do? I really really want it! =(

Expectations of myself

2007-04-07T23:05:00.000+08:00

Recalling what Mr Lee had said during one of the assembly talks in the auditorium.

Mr Lee: Aim high and you'll get high.

Maybe he's right. So now, I put some high expectations of myself for Mid-Year in order to push myself further to greater heights.

English - B4
Malay - A1
A Maths - A1
E Maths - A1
Chemistry - A1
Physics - B3
Geography - A2
Combined Humans - B4

Actually I feel sorry for myself for only aiming a B4 for English and Combined Humans but I guess I can't blame myself because I rarely get Bs for these 2 subjects. The probability of getting B for the 2 subjects is maybe about 1 out of 30. Anyway, I think it's quite good that the minimum L1R5 is 10. I really hope to achieve single digit for O levels.

Stress

2007-04-07T22:47:00.000+08:00

Went out to study today. But it didn't quite work out. Arrrghhhh! Damn it! I seriously must get rid of all these distractions no matter what. If I don't pass geog with flying colours this time, I'm so dead meat. And if I don't score high enough for Chemistry, I will hate myself again. Stoopid lah. Now I must really study intensively tomorrow. This whole weekend is not that satisfying because I didn't manage to study that much. Fcuk! Now I'm bloody pissed and frustrated at myself. I feel like saying that I'm sick of studying but I think it's too soon. Damn lah.. Why must it be so stressful and pressurizing at this stage of life? It's not because of studies alone. But even other stuffs are distracting and pressurizing me. Please... since we're all born to study, let nothing and I really mean NOTHING distract us at all. If we're meant to study, then I can accept that but I can't accept the fact that I'm being pressurized but other stuffs which really affect me and my everything in a negative way.

I seriously wish I can run away from this distractions that have been making my life difficult. It's not that I really want to run away, but it's just that I wanna concentrate on my studies first. Sad to say, I don't really have a choice. It's hard to balance everything but I'm forced to hang on. Now I'm really forcing myself to be as thick-skinned as possible and not letting anything distract me no matter what. It's hard to control my emotions and not let it run wild. But I don't really have a choice. I have to force myself. Someone please give me the strength to hold on... I'm trying as much as possible not to cry through all these.

I'm a ticking time bomb

2007-04-06T22:02:00.000+08:00

My whole weekend is just so screwed up and ruined. All thanks to some fucktards. Early in the morning, just have to piss me off so much and ruin my whole weekend. I'm so sick of this. Every single weekend never fails to spoil my life in one way or another. Just when I thought I was looking forward to the weekend to have a nice rest and break, some people just have to make my life difficult. Now who's being unreasonable? The whole 5 weekdays have been such a tiring week for me, not forgetting our fellow sec 4 TKsians. We've always looked forward to school holidays and weekends. So you should know how it feels like when people just have to interupt your rest right? Yup. It's been very frustrating for me. But I must say this; I'm proud of myself for being such a patient girl. Seriously, I didn't think I could be this patient. But still, everything has its limit right? Right! So I'm a ticking time bomb. The more you disturb me, the sooner I'll explode. But as always, I always try to stay in control. Only God knows how many times I've cried this week. I just wish that nothing else will distract me from my concentration for Mid-Year exams and most importantly, O levels.

Anyway, no point saying all these. I've just discovered a new and fun way of relieving stress. It's actually fun for me, and only for me only. I sort of locked myself in the room. And then I listened to my mp3. To be exact, I listened to hindi songs especially Kabhi Alvidaa Naa Kehna songs. Then I munched on a few biscuits. And when I'm getting bored, I used this useless camera phone to take stoopid pictures of myself. Yes, it's camwhoring time. I purposely put a thick layer of powder on my face and do stoopid poses for the camera phone. It's fun, I tell you. Haha. For me lah... Well at least it made me feel better even though I'm alone. It's a pity that this camera phone is too useless coz I can't transfer the pics anywhere in any way. Yes, that's so sad. But at least I felt better being alone. And just alone. Noone else but me and my one and only bestest friend ever; myself!!

Zzzzz...

2007-04-03T22:11:00.000+08:00

Sleepy.... I'm so sleepy... I've got nobody... On my own....

Zzzzz....

Sleepy week. And it's only Tuesday now. I'm gonna flunk History test again after today. WTF. Just hope I'll do well for A Math test tomorrow.

We got our mid-year exam schedule today. And it kinds sucks because we have to go home late almost everyday. Well not that late actually, but late for an exam day. Like 3.30pm? I expected us to go home at around 11 or 12 plus on most of the days. Anyway, that doesn't really matters right? What matters most to me is that I study enough and I'm prepared for the exam.

Oh no. It's already going to be mid-year.
We're getting closer and closer to prelims.
After that will be our O's.

Aaarghhh!!

Btw, I found out last Monday Mr Tan Kee Hoe read Alsyaari's blog. So does that mean that he also reads the rest of our blogs? Maybe. It's very possible because of the links. But what's for sure is that our principal, Mr Lee reads Wan Fong's blog. I don't find that really surprising but what makes some of us so excited is that letting the teachers see or read what is not meant for them.
Well at least this news makes me more alert and cautious about what I type now because before this, I never thought that teachers have the time to waste by reading our blogs. It's like as if they have nothing better to do. So TKsians, if you read this, be careful if you wanna bitch about teachers on your blogs. Well, sometimes I also do bitch or condemn about teachers on my blog, saying how lousy their teachings are and stuff. But we just have to be careful and control ourselves not to go too far or else this matter will be brought up in school as well, like what happened to our friend last year.

2007-03-30T21:35:00.000+08:00

Finally I got the time and opportunity to blog again. This week has been a tiring and struggling week. Loads of homework come so suddenly. Loads of tests come all at once. And also, a few events not to be missed which take away some of my sleeping time.

Monday
Games carnival. Some of us stayed back to support our class netball team and also to watch floorball. This time, Alsyaari became the referee. Anyway, it's all over and my class was not there anymore to participate. Hmmph! Okay. 4D got third in netball, which was not that bad although we had rather high expectations for them. After the whole thing, I eventually left school at 6 plus and went home.

Tuesday
Had geog test which just turned out to be a total disaster. Oh man. I'm so gonna flunk again. Worse still, it's worth 50 marks. That's the end of me. =( After that, I stayed back to watch Games Carnival for Sec 2s and 3s. Then we had a super energetic game of badminton with Ali. It was such a hyper game that made me dizzy with the shuttle cock flying all around me. Okay. After that, went home at 6 plus again. Time to rush through homeworks.

Wednesday
Physics test was a disaster as well. Although I managed to answer almost all the questions, I'm pretty sure that my answers are very crappy. So I'm gonna flunk again. English test was another big disaster. Not enough time to write everything. Well the good thing is that I got my format right. Luckily I was smart enough not to find trouble to minus marks and fail worse than I already did. Yes, English(subject) sucks.
After the test, I went home alone and took my siblings out to watch the Dance Floor, AGAIN! 2nd time for them, 4th time for me. =) Yay. Actually I got the tickets to stand at the moshpit (the place at the stage where people stand). Well, I wanted to but it was only for 16 years and above. Yeah man! NC16! Haha. Oh yes, I'm legal. =D So I thought I would just go to sit at the normal place rather than standing there alone since I'm the eldest among my siblings. Unfortunately, we were sitting at the Melvin & Sharon supporters. Sad to say, some of them are quite irritating. Same as the Batucadas' supporters. Anyway, the show was very nice and entertaining. Flying Dutchman said 'Kampong' when he actually meant 'Kompang'. Lols. And not to forget, I saw Mrs Tan Tsui Fung there too! She was with her kids at the Platinum supporters. By the end of everything, we reached home at 10.45pm. What else could I do if not sleep?

Thursday
E Math remedial was crap and super boring. Every week is the same thing. We were given TK's last year Mid-Year Paper to do and it was quite difficult. Urghh.. Mdm Halilah said this, "Whoever finished the paper, come and show me and you can leave." We were like WTF! How on earth are we supposed to finish the paper?! It was already tough and there was not enough time. And to my surprise, Firdaus was the first one to leave the classroom. Well, not that unexpected anyway coz he's such an intelligent smart ass. Malay's pride for being one of the top students! =)
Anyway, after that I went straight home alone again since Ali has to go meet his demanding girlfriend(Athletics/running). Then I met with Cousin Kak Irah to expand this nice black shoe of mine, which was later given away to Kak Irah because it couldn't be expand! Haha! I find it quite funny coz I'm such a big foot! Lol. So at that time itself, I was bought another pair of shoe of my choice. Haha. Then Kak Irah drop by at my house and Prison Break started at 10.30pm! Wheeee! Nice show. I managed to get Ali hooked on it! I'm so influential and Prison Break is so addictive. =D

Friday
That's today. It turned out to be a sleepy day for me. Maybe because of the Dance Floor on Wednesday and Prison Break last night. English lesson totally shocked me with my compre marks. In our entire class, only 9 out of 34 students passed the compre test. Obviously, I was one of the failures. My marks was just worse than F9. If only there was a grade G10, I would belong to that category. That's how bad it is. Arghh! And I realise that my Malay is also getting worse! Oh man. What's happening to me. I used to get As all the way but I've been getting Bs. WTF! There's really something wrong with me. Wake up, Sarah. I'm gonna kill you if your O level results is not satisfactory. No matter what, you must get less than 15 points or else I'm gonna stab you to death and push you down from Mount Everest!

This week is such a 'I flunked all my tests' kind of week. Oh no. I'm gonna commit suicide if this ever happens again. Gahh! I hate myself for being so lazy and not working hard enough. I hate to hate you, Sarah. Please do something because I don't wanna hate you anymore. I wanna love you, Sarah. So wake up!

What if....

2007-03-24T20:57:00.000+08:00

Just now as I was surfing the net in the afternoon, I was suddenly reminded of this question for guys.

If your mum and your girlfriend are drowning in the sea, who would you save first; your mum or your girlfriend?

Maybe some of you might have heard it before. But I dunno why, this question suddenly came into my mind. Well. since I have nothing better to do, let's make it tougher.

If your mum and your wife are drowning in the sea, who would you save first?

Let's make it even tougher.

You are in very bad terms with your mum because of a terrible quarrel and even your wife has a problem with her. If your mum and your wife are drowning, who would you save first?

Haha. I know it's a very tough question especially for guys (DUH!) and you would definitely wish that nothing like that will ever happen to you. The worst thing that can happen is that you can't even swim. Haha!

Just being random.

Games Carnival

2007-03-23T21:05:00.000+08:00

The Sec 4s and Sec 1s had our games carnival preliminary rounds on Thursday.
The good thing: 4D's netball team is just POWER!
The bad thing: Unfairness in floorball result in our loss.

Firstly, me, Wei Jie, Charie, Atiqah, Muhd and Jian Yang were involved in floorball, which was the first ever match against 4A. Yes, that sucks. But what made us more pissed was that the person in-charge of floorball was the participant reprisenting his class, 4A. Another thing was that the referee was so blind and unfair. The referee actually listened to the IC about what to do. The 4A people even scored an illegal goal! Yes.
Firstly, the ball went out of the boundary so it was supposed to be OUT for 4A. But then it hit the fence and quickly bounced back. The referee didn't see that. Secondly, the ball bounced back and entered the goal post from the side. Thirdly, the ball hit Atiqah (our goal keeper). Fourthly, the ball bounced and went back into the goal post! And all that, the referee didn't even see. Oh WTF!
He didn't even penalise people for lifting their sticks high above the waist level although it was against the rule! Oh Mannn! Why didn't Ali become the referee?! If only he had the final say in everything, he would definitely help us. Even though we tried to explain everything to the referee, he didn't really care. And it was all over by then. Well, Jian Yang said "Never mind! We played with INTEGRITY!" Hahaha! It's true. Anyway, it's all over and we still have our class strong netball to be the level champion! =)

Anyway, Rika gave me the Dance Floor tickets for Wednesday's LIVE PERFORMANCE SHOW!!! Tell me how cool is that. Haha. I was already excited and ready to go for it. But some people just have to piss me off that badly. So bad till I just couldn't stop my tears. Yes, I cry when I'm super angry or pissed. Just because the show ends late, I wasn't allowed to go! WTFWTFWTF!! That made me super angry. Why?! Because it wasn't easy for me to get the tickets for Rika especially because many people were rushing to get them. In fact, I asked for 4 tickets but I got only 2. That's good enough because at least I still got them. But I still end up sitting with unused tickets yet again! WTF lah! Some people just had to spoil my mood the whole day. Even after I got home at night, I still heard what I really dread to hear. OMG! Binget all the way! Some people just don't understand. I still have to keep reminding myself that I'm no longer any other 13 or 14 year old. And maybe some people just forgot that, pissing me off greatly at the same time. Once in a while I wanna go out and have fun somewhere I don't always get to go also cannot. Urghhh. Anyway, thanks a lot to that one and only who never fails to colour my life whenever it is plain black and white. At least I have a source of inspiration that motivates me to throw away shitnesslyfe and get some honeylicious. =)

i owe a lot to you, my beloved. just can't thank you enough for making this world a better place to live in. what more can i ask for if not for having the best friend i've ever had. thanks for ALWAYS being there for me. love u so much switheart.

Back to school!

2007-03-19T21:23:00.000+08:00

It's sad to know that the holidays have ended already. And we're all back to school, with tons of homework, loads of tests, chunks of scoldings and naggings from teachers......even parents. All the nyek3 as the wake-up call, make ur bed, clean ur room, arrange ur books neatly, why u go home so late, why teacher always ask for money and all the blah3. Typical mothers.

Nevertheless, I'm actually very pleased because this was probably the first holiday after such a looooong time, that I don't have to go to school. Yay! In fact, I had a great week be it on weekdays or weekends. =)

Last Saturday, I went out with Abang A for awhile. Just thought maybe we can burn fats after the several outings filled with eating especially the Seoul Garden day. Hehe. So we met up and had a game of Badminton! Wheee... Finally I have the opportunity to burn fats. Hehe. After that, we went to Tampines to find some birthday presents for some people but we ended up finishing all our money buying stuffs for ourselves. Haha. Wait. It's just me, actually. Not us. =P Yup, I bought a PUMA bag and a KAPPA jacket for myself instead of finding presents. Hehe. Anyway, I just made myself happier that I got myself so many birthday presents this year. Lols.

Yesterday, I went to Buangkok (aunt's place) straight after Madrasah(religious class). Then I got 2 more birthday presents from my cousins. In the evening, we went down to the park to play Badminton AGAIN! Haha. Good for me coz I get to burn more fats. It was quite uncomfortable because I haven't sweat a lot in a long time. Hehe. Then after that, we just ate and do stuffs and went home at night. Yay. Happy Holiday, at last!

Today was a dreadful school day, and everybody wished we had a longer break. Anyway, it was not surprising that many people noticed my shorter hair and I felt better when many said that I look better with it. At least I wouldn't feel that bad, cutting off my long hair which was quite spoilt anyway. =) And I actually loved some people's facial expressions and reactions with the way they said, "You cut your hair?!?!" Haha. I love looking at those shocked expressions. Lols.
We had physics lecture just now, which I slept through like one quarter of it. I just couldn't resist a nice nap expecially with lovely Mrs Neo's voice which is very nice to sleep to. I love my sarcasm! =D

Just about 1 hour ago, I did a very rare experiment. Something that I would never think I would be interested in. It's something like cooking but not exactly like that. Well, my brother made a pizza just now so I decided to try making one myself too! Haha. It was just a very simple basic pizza, with the most budget ingredients of all! A piece of bread, one hotdog and a slice of cheese. Yes, even a primary 1 kid can do that. Lols. I did like 3 of them just now and ate 1 and a half. The rest I gave to my sibliings and dad. It was not that bad but just plain. Hehe. One day, I shall make a few and bring to school to let people try! Haha!

Anyway, here are some pictures that I promised to upload. =) Pictures on top, captions below.

At Kallang KFC on Tuesday.

My brudder is so hardworking at MP library.

Introducing the new couple-to-be, Justyn and Nina!

Seoul Garden!!

Miss Honeylicious is having fun at Seoul Gardenn!

Yummilicious black pepper beef!

Enjoying my coke!

Hehehe..

Elbert and Soo Han, the hot-legged couple outside Justyn's condo gate. =)

Sweet nothings

2007-03-17T11:21:00.000+08:00

It's been a wonderful week for me. Yes, I'm finally feeling happy and so much better now. Credits to my best and close friend, one just so unique that I've never met anyone like him before. I agree that girls are more troublesome than guys, despite being one. =)

Anyway, I went out almost every single day for the week. And each day, I just enjoy the company of my friend(s) who fill my life with smiles. Sometimes, I even forgot about my birthday that now, I sort of think of it as nothing much. Perhaps the only special thing about this year's birthday is that I'm turning sixteen.

My enjoyment already started last week, before the holidays started.
Last Friday, it was Alsyaari's birthday and he had some unexpected surprises from his beloved friends, seniors and juniors. There was a birthday bash for him after school, which unexpectedly stopped him from going to the mosque because Justyn brought soap which was much more better than whipped cream on Clarissa's birthday. Lol. It was so fun watching the bash but luckily I stepped back and wasn't involved at all. The only thing I did was put some cake on him, which was really not that bad. Hehe. Pictures at Ali' blog.

Last Saturday, I didn't really go out anywhere except for going to Bedok with my mum to buy some things, and I also had a haircut which made me look a little better. Now, I'm really beginning to fall in love with my new hair! And I really feel like dying it brown again since it wouldn't take much dye as it is much shorter now. =P

Last Sunday, was a fun family day with my family not forgetting my cousins and aunt and uncle at Jurong West swimming complex! We had lots of fun especially the kicking of the floats! Though it was not as good as Jurong East, we still had some fun except for the part when my small cousin Danial almost drown in the Jaccuzi. Another bad thing, no pictures. =(

Monday, went out in a dress for the first time. Lol. Went to Esplanade and Marina Square. For the first time, I tried the Darn Good Brownie at McCafe. It was really super nice, I was melting and felt like fainting. I think it was really the best Chocolate product that I've ever tasted. Really.. I also ate Oreo cheesecake, which was nicer than Starbucks' one but not as nice as the brownie. Hehs. We were supposed to eat at Seoul Garden on that day but I forgot to bring the email printout to get the free buffet. So it was postponed to Thursday. Anyway, it was an enjoyable and sweet day.

Tuesday. I was supposed to go for the English course thingy but it was cancelled because the instructor had an emergency in something. So I met Abang A. and we went to MP library with Justyn and Stefan to do homework. Nothing much happened after that, but it was still a good day. =)

Wednesday. Went to do more homework with Abang A. at Bedok McD, then we went to eat the brownie at McCafe again!

Thursday. Happy Sweet-16 Birthday to Me! Went out with Abang A, and the new couple, Justyn and Nina! We finally ate at Seoul Garden again but this time, I went in for free because of the email that POPULAR gave me as a birthday gift. =) It was just to yummilicious until Justyn noticed my belly. Hmmphh! Converse was having a sale at TM so I bought a t-shirt for only $9.90! I wanted to buy a shoe but it was beyond my budget. I wanted to look for a nice bag but they are all not that nice and some are too common. So in the end I bought a shirt, which I wore the next day when we went for Justyn's birthday party.

Friday. We went to Justyn's house which was a condo at Simei for his and his brother's birthday celebration. There was bbq and people were swimming and having lots of fun at the swimming pool, especially all those athletes with hot legs. Haha! I sort of envy all those people in Athletics coz they are all full of fun and crappy people unlike RCY. Conflicts can be developed more easily in UGs, unlike in other CCAs where they just have so much fun. Sometimes I wish I was in Athletics because the people there are just so nice and fun and crappy and united and just super fun to be with. They were pushing each other in the pool, sabotaging each other like nobody's business and laughing their heads off like mad. Lols. And I just found out that both Justyn's parents are teachers. I sort of adore his life because he has 2 cool teachers as his 2 super cool parents! Haha. Anyway, there were a lot of people there and I really enjoyed watching those hot-legged people having fun although I wasn't involved at all. I was laughing all the way while eating, as if I'm watching a live comedy. Lols!

That's all for now. I'll try to upload some pictures again next time because all of them are with Abang A since I always take photos using his camera phone. Yup, sad me don't have any camera for now except for my useless camera phone that has no way of transfering the photos anywhere.

Btw, I would just like to make a small confession. I'm not as humble as people think I am.....really. When some people ask me what I want for my birthday, I would just say I don't want anything. But actually, I would ask for the things that people can't afford to give me. Not that I'm demanding but these things are the things that I really really want yet costly for innocent students like us. =P For example, I used to mention in one of the previous post that I want someone to buy me a digicam for my birthday but actually I never expect anything like that at all because I know only a crazy person would. So I thought I'd better just shut my mouth and say nothing before I ask for a laptop or a converse shoe or a roxy bag or an adidas jacket or a super good digicam or whatnots. =)

2007-03-15T14:34:00.000+08:00

Somehow, I don'k know how, I feel so untrusted. Like as if I'm still a small kid that needs lots and lots of attention. Somehow, I just feel that people don't trust me. They don't believe whatever I said. And so they have to resort to doing things that I hate, just to find the truth themselves. Yes, I obviously hate this a lot. I don't know who to blame.
I just feel like I'm not given enough privacy. There's no need to talk about my personal life anymore. Coz nothing seems to be personal at all. I'm not sure if I'm given too much attention or not, but I'm very uncomfortable with it because I just feel as if I'm being treated like a kid when I'm like a giant to myself, despite being short. Why must some people want to know every single thing about my life? I have the right to keep some things to myself right? But I feel like I don't have it. Especially to some people who must know every thing about me, I feel as if they just don't trust me. Am I that bad?

Actually I feel very disappointed and sick. Sick of always trying to please people. But I don't feel appreciated. Sick of trying to do things to show my appreciation to people but they never seem to be happy. Yet when I stop doing it, they complain and complain and complain. Sick of being asked the same question over and over again. Sick of feeling as if I'm being forced to disclose things that I don't want. Sick of people invading my privacy. Sick of feeling untrusted.

Please. Give me a break. I want some space. For myself. So that I can breathe. Nobody likes to be pressurised. Same goes to me. I want some peace. I want some privacy. Just a little bit more freedom to make my own decisions. I don't wanna be treated like a baby anymore. I don't wanna be pushed around anymore.

It's not as if I can live alone without people around. But some are just overdoing things.

Hais...

What a bittersweet birthday. Actually, it's too soon to say.
Anyway, thanks to all those who wished me birthday through SMS, testimonials on friendster etc.
And thanks to the person who gave me the super big tweety soft toy as an early birthday present. =)
Happy Birthday to Me! I'm now legal for NC16 movies!

so much sweet nothings
so little sweet somethings

Goodbye, Sayonara, Alvida to my hair!

2007-03-14T23:37:00.000+08:00

The first thing I shall announce is that Sarah finally, unbelieveably cut her hair!!
Yes. For those who can't believe it, you better do. If you still can't believe it, then seeing is believing. Yup. TKsians, wait till monday till you see my very short ponytail compared to last time. =)

It's shorter by at least 5 inches now. Of course, it's very sad to say goodbye to my beloved hair but I just have to let it go since it had been giving me a lot of problems. Anyway, I've learnt to get used to my new hairstyle now and I'm beginning to like it. I agree that I look younger and maybe more childish with shorter hair now. At least people won't think that I am my mum's sister anymore.

Okay. Back to my main blogging. There's so much to blog about, yet so little time to do so despite the holidays. No, I'm no longer busy with school work (for now), but I'm quite busy going out and playing games on the internet. Till I become so drifted away and distracted that I forgot to blog.

Last Thursday, since nobody wanted to accompany me to go to Mediacorp and watch the results show of the Dance Floor, I went with my siblings by ourselves. Although we were so not confident of going there ourselves, we somehow managed to find the way though we were quite late. I didn't expect quite alot of TK people there too, wearing school uniforms, some more.
I was actually quite surprised to find that the entire auditorium was quite empty. Just enough people to fill up all the seats in the front portion. Anyway, my mum said that me and my bro was on TV. But my classmates said that they didn't see me. Actually, I knew I was on TV cause I could see myself on the big big screen. But that was only for a split second that only me and my mum can spot within the split second. Hehe.

This is the highway that was found at the main road near the Mediacorp place.

I'm currently just so in love with this cute cousin of Ali, namely Siti Khairiah. She's 15-months old and she's just so cute!! I wanna carry her one day!

And this is my new hairstyle and my new look which my brother said looks so 'retro'!
I agree, especially with that polka dot hairband and me wearing the new black dress that I bought at This Fashion. I'm not cheapskate, I'm just budget. Lols.

I actually have a lot more to update and I shall update next time coz I wanna go sleep now.
Anyway, Happy Sweet-16th Birthday to Me!
Birthday wish: grow taller, operation to go smoothly, and not be treated like a kid anymore. =)

Hols coming

2007-03-07T21:41:00.000+08:00

Obviously, the whole world have been waiting anxiously for the holidays to come. Finally, a longer break for Sec 4s. Yup, this is our last week of school and we have just sat for our very last test of the term today. We had English test - full paper 2, which I totally screwed up. I hate this to happen, but I know I'm gonna flung....AGAIN! It was bloody difficult so I gave up and did not do 2 questions plus 1 vocab word. My only hope left is summary, which wasn't even 12 points long yet it was exactly at the word limit. Well, I just hope I score in language for summary. =

I'm actually very sleepy now. I'm gonna sleep later. But you know what? I feel so much better today being at home. Because, there's no homework or test to study for!! So from 5 plus till now, I've been slacking like crazy at home, feeling so free cause I finally have no school work to do at home! It already feels like a holiday. But yes, we all know that we still have to study during the holidays. Mid-year exam is coming quite soon and I'm so not prepared yet. Hais.. I want to say that I'm quite nervous for O levels now but I'm tired of saying it already coz I always get nervous when exams are drawing nearer.

Anyways, during Malay, we had this bahas(debate) which everybody had to take part in. For this topic, it was more of the battle of sexes. It was me, Kirin and Imma against Muhd, Rico and Syafiq. And the fight, was quite tough, actually and time was definitely not enough especially for me.
Btw, the topic was : Tanggungjawab mendisiplinkan pelajar terletak di bahu guru dan bukan di bahu keluarga. Bincangkan. (Responsibility of disciplining a student falls on the teachers and not on family.)
The girls were on the opposition side, which means we disagree with the statement. I think we were all quite hardworking coz we had like a lot of points till my script was 4 pages long! I had to sacrifise my sleep just to work out a better script and slept at 12 midnight last night. That's why I'm very sleepy now.
And it was really a disaster when I only managed to finish 1 page of the script and it was time's up!! OMG! WTH! I was like super shocked when that happened coz I haven't even started on the main points yet! I'm like super pissed and not satisfied at all! I demand a rematch!! But I doubt it was gonna happen anyway. Urghhhh! What a waste of my time and effort. I could have had 2 hours of sleep more! I even got help from my mum who took the trouble to write 1 full page long with all the relevant points! And all that, were not even mentioned! Frust sehh!! Hmmph. =(

Well luckily, something cheered me up a little bit today. Rika gave me tickets to watch the results show of the Dance Floor. Yay! I'll be going to watch it again at the studio for the 2nd time. Actually she could have gotten the tickets for the performance show but all her juniors had grabbed them. None left. So we just make do with all the remaining that we have. Lols.
I hope Muhd can go with me tomorrow. I'll be bringing my siblings as well; both of those noisy kids. I just hope they don't get thrown out of the studio for making too much noise. Actually, everybody will be making noise there! Lols.

So watch out for me on TV tomorrow, 8-8.30pm Channel 5! =)

I'm excited for Prison Break 2 to start! Me and Aki were super hyper when we saw the advertisement!! =D

Prison Break!!!

2007-03-02T14:46:00.000+08:00

Updates on Prison Break 2!! It's starting on 15th March 2007! And that's on my birthday!

Yay! I'm so excited!!

I knew it! Mediacorp must have known my birthday and they purposely wanted to start the season 2 of Prison Break on my birthday as a birthday present and granting my birthday wish!! Yahhoooooo!!

Prison Break 2
Channel 5
15 March 2007, Thursday
10.30pm
For review, go to this website:
http://ch5.mediacorptv.com/shows/drama/view/1423/1/.html

Besides Prison Break, I have another birthday present that I know I'm gonna get in advance.
And it's all thanks to POPULAR bookstore!
They sent me an e-mail which said that I get to enjoy some special previleges on my birthday month (March - duh!). And since there are about 5 options, I would obviously take the best one, which is a free buffet at Seoul Garden!! Yayyy!
I can't wait to go.. =)

1 more day to Asheem's birthday.
7 more days to Alsyaari's/Serena's/Edward's birthday.
12 more days to Paulina's/Victoria's birthday.
13 more days to my birthday.
20 more days to Rika's birthday.

Today is cousin Syafiqah's birthday.
Yesterday was cousin Kak Syidah's birthday.

In short, Happy Belated/Advance Birthday to all March babies. We rock!! =D

Flag Day

2007-02-25T21:53:00.000+08:00

Yesterday's flag day was quite okay but tiring. Almost the whole time was spent with Atiqah together with the donation can. Walking around asking for donations can be quite tiring sometimes, especially when there are other people around also asking for donations for the same organisation.

We were at Marine Parade at first, but there were so many other TK people around so we decided to go to East Coast road, but it was not really the kinda place to ask for donations. So we took a bus to Bedok Int. I felt so tempted to just go home and sleep since my house was just nearby, but I can't. =( I didn't really realise that Bedok was a good place to ask for donations until today.

After getting tired of walking around the whole Bedok Int, we took a bus to Tampines with some other guys, just to found out there are many other people from other school asking for donations for the same organisation. In the end, me and Atiqah walked up and down the bus interchange and we soon found more and more TK people coming to Tampines to ask for donations. I agree that Tampines bus drivers are really nice people because many of them were so polite and donated to us.

Finally, I bought McD milkshake to cool down before going off to Marine Parade again to return the donation can. Met up with Brudder A there and after that we went home.

I didn't really know that asking for donations can be tiring. Well at least we got CIP hours, although I think I have more than enough already.

I tried to study geog alone today. It didn't work out well enough. Nothing much got into my head. Now I can really conclude that I can't study alone and that I really need to study beside a studying person(whom I know).

I was holding my phone almost the whole time today, thinking that I should expect 1 or 2 messages from ... But there was none. I was hoping to feel vibration from the phone somehow. But it never came. I wonder whether ... still care about me.
I spent almost the whole day alone today, and I realise that a lot of things around me reminds me of ... Well at least I'm quite glad that I can still depend on myself to make me feel better. But at the same time, I realise that I can't really survive alone; I still need people around. And I can't be totally independent.

Maybe you've become so much a part of me that I realise how much I can't forget you at all.

=(

2007-02-24T20:11:00.000+08:00

Despite all the excitement because of Prison Break, I'm also a bit disappointed. Well because some people haven't been honest with me.
Not only that, some people have even jumped into conclusions about me.

I'm quite disappointed.

That someone makes false assumptions about me.

*sigh*

Anyway, I can't really do anything about it. I have no say in this afterall. It's always the more experienced that make decisions because they think they know and have experienced more than us. Well sometimes they forget that even people like me are humans afterall. We also have feelings and whatnots. Some people tend to forget that we are able to think properly like normal adults. Some of them still think that a 16-year-old doesn't know much about the world. Well the fact is, some of us here can think even more intellegently than normal adults. And some of us are even more mature than adults. Afterall, age is just a number right?? I'm not demoralising anyone in particular. But these are just the truth. We all know that humans make mistakes but somethimes even the oldest people make the stupidest and dumbest decisions that someone 30 years younger can tell. That's quite a shame isn't it?

I wanna go out to study again with people. Ehemmm... Not study people, but study with people. =P
Well I guess it is confirmed that I study best with company, and not being the only one studying. That's why I go out almost everyday after school to study or do homework outside. I usually can't concentrate studying or doing homework at home cause I'll always feel super tired and sleepy at home, but not outside. And I hate it when people assume that I always go home late because I go out and have fun outside. Although it's true that I like to hang out outside, it's also true that I usually do the necessary things first.

I wish I can have more freedom/privacy. Actually, more of privacy than freedom. =(

Prison Break!!!

2007-02-24T19:48:00.000+08:00

Heyyy!! I've got good news!! What else is it about if not PRISON BREAK?!?!?!?!

As you can see, I'm like so excited now!!

Yes!!

About PRISON BREAK!!!

I can't wait!

I really can't wait!!

I really really can't wait!!!!

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FOR PRISON BREAK 2 TO START!!!

Yes!!

I saw the ad on teeveee!!

Prison Break season is gonna start soon!!

Yeahh!!

SSSOOOONNNN!!!!!!!

When is it gonna start?!?!

In MARCH!!!!

That's next month!!!

Hey!

March sounds very familiar right!!!

You know why?!?!

Because it's the month of my birthday!!!!

Yeah!

Mediacorp must have known my birthday. That's why they decided to start Prison Break 2 as a birthday present for me!!

Lols! Thanks Mediacorp!! Haha!!

Brudder A, you promised to watch it the next season. So you must watch it!!

And to all other people, I really strongly recommend that you watch Prison Break because if you don't, shame on you! Haha. Just kidding. But seriously, you won't regret watching it at all! =)

I'm promoting Prison Break!! =D

Prison Break 2
Day: Thursdays
Time: 10pm onwards (usually 10-11 or 10.30-11.30)
Hot star: Wentworth Miller as Michael Scofield

| happy |

2007-02-21T20:18:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling much better now....compared to yesterday. I never expected to recover that fast but thank god I did. In fact, I'm feeling much happier today. =) See, I'm even smiling! Lols.

I realised something in the bus today on the way to school, that got me quite pissed. Although nobody was smoking in the bus, I smelt cigarette. And the smell was of course, super awful. Well obviously all these hardcore smokers just can't let go of their own muderers till the smell sticks to them. Yeah, cigarettes are murderers and they should and must be banned! I really don't understand these smokers. I regard smokers as people who are tired of living and wants to die early. If some of them feel guily, why even start?? I totally despise and abhor smokers. Well, I don't hate them for who they are but I hate them for their addiction. If wanna die early, never mind, that's their problem. But the worse thing is that they are so bloody inconsiderate. Puff and puff till the smoke gets into people's face. Then want to kill other people also ah?? What I really can't stand is that when some of them just smoke and act cool, thinking they are just so hot with those disgusting sticks. Well of course I'm not saying that all smokers are that bad. Of course there are some considerate ones but generally, smoking sucks.

I have nothing much to blog about so I think I shall just be random again.

I'm watching the Dance Floor now. And so far, the duo group D2K is the best I've seen for this show. I just love their hip hop style and moves. They're just very good, even all the judges praise them. So do I! Hehehes. Somehow, watching the Dance Floor has made me so inspired. Lols. I shall promise myself and everybody one thing. After I step down from TKRCY I'll never touch Uniformed Group again. Instead, I shall consider joining dance in JC. Hahaha. But really, I'm considering. If there's traditional and modern in one, the more better. =) Well at least dancing is a form of working out and can help to lose weight. =P
Oh yeah. You know Daphne Khoo right?? Yes, the one in the Singapore Idol finalist. Yeah. She joined the Dance Floor! That is so WTH. Her group name is 'SNAAP'. WTH lah. Not popular enough or what. Give other people chance for popularity lah.. Jangan nak step multi-talented ah. For some reason, I have a thing against her maybe because she doesn't sing well. Hmmph! Anyway, her group didn't really dance that well. It wasn't impressive at all. Nothing special at all, it's just like any other ordinary dance performance you see at free concerts. The judges said the same thing too. Well good for them anyway.. =P

English test today was totally screwed up. My compo was totally crap. I think brudder A screwed up also. But still, I wouldn't be surprised if he got higher than me, especially being such a perfectionist. This week is very slacky especially because of the CNY holidays. Only one test for the week. Yay. =)

201st post

2007-02-19T15:42:00.000+08:00

I think there's something wrong with me today.

I feel so random.

This is my 201st post so far for this blog. But I don't think that is a lot.

I think guys who don't use vulgarities at all are sexy.

The neighbour's small kid next door is crying coz he fell down and it's very annoying.

I suddenly feel uneasiness in my stomach. (oh no! is menses coming?!)

I want to study geog and do english and do chem but I have no mood.

I'm totally clean broke now but I need to get $$ fast for anniversary present and birthday presents for Sarah Bte Mohd Sazali and Muhammad Alsyaari Bin Muhammad Shahril next month!

I'm lazy to blog but I have a lot to blog about.

And why am I so random?!

What's wrong with me?

Urghhh... Okay lets stop this.

I know its very late to wish everyone Happy Valentine now. So, forget it. =P Anyway, this year, valentines day is very sweet and so happy happy. I can't think of a word to describe this year's 14 Feb. For some reason, there are more people giving out presents more than the previous years. I even got chocolates from guys who are very unexpected to be the kind who would give stuffs to the whole class. Hehe. The flowers that I got are still alive but they are all in a terrible state. Haha. The sad thing about that day was that I came to school with my right eye looking as if it got punched. And then I realise that there was something like a pimple in my lower eye lid and it was yellow because of the pus. Everyone was asking me what was wrong with my eye. Lols. Then the sad thing was that I had to be involved in some English thingy after school because I failed super badly for the test. =P

The next day, I woke up as usual and then my mum told me not to go to school and go to the doctor because my eye seemed to be getting worse. I was quite happy because this is like almost once in a lifetime that my mum actually told me not to go to school. Haha. Usually, I initiate it and then she just had to agree but this time, she initiated it. Lols. So I sms-ed Brudder A and went back to sleep. I woke up again to go polyclinic alone and found that it was very packed. Number of waiting patients: 75. Average waiting time: 2 hours.
That was how bad it was. Then, the doctor said that I had an eye infection. And yes, the total waiting time was really 2 hours plus. But the thing that pissed me off was that when I was getting out of the place, the screen showed that the number of waiting patients had decreased to 20 and the average waiting time was 30 minutes! Hmmmph! I should have come later.

Friday.
I went to school as usual, only that I brought only my small brown bag and some paper for the financial assistance thingy. Since it was the CNY celebration, there was nothing to bring. It was a half-day because of the good O level results, not because of the CNY celebration. For the first period, all the sec 4s had to go to the audi for some things about our graduation night. Finally, they organised the grad nite straight after O levels and not after prelims, like they've always done it. Yayy! We're the lucky batch. The CNY was crappy. In fact, I was pissed off. Not that I'm racist but I just find it very unfair. The whole thing was in Chinese. Are they selfish or what?? Will they ever do this kind of celebration on the eve of Hari Raya Puasa? I bet it's a no. Why the need for so much celebration and performances when Chinese don't celebrate CNY as much as Muslims celebrate Hari Raya? The most, they will just carry on with lessons and announce a half-day for everyone on the eve of Hari Raya. No performances whatsoever. Everybody will treat as if it is some free public holiday.
Seriously, I'm not being racist but this thing is really unfair. I'm not finding trouble, I'm seeking harmony. And I disagree with the saying 'Majority wins'. If everybody were nice and understanding enough, the whole world wouldn't mind if there was an Indian performance on the eve of Deepavali. *sigh* I have no say, but I'm just saying how I feel. =(

Yesterday, me and my mum went to Changi beach to join the rest of our relatives on the overnight picnic/camping which lasted till today afternoon. Most of my relatives went there on Saturday and stayed for 2 nights but me and my mum joined them on the 2nd day. What I did there: eat, sleep, listen to music, chitchat, walked around Changi Village etc. Sounds boring right? Because there was nothing much to do. The beach was very tempting but looking at the condition of the toilet, I'd rather not swim. Furthermore, I don't wanna be chaotah-ed. Practically everywhere was covered with tents. And 99.9% of the people are Malays. Very few Indians and of coz, even fewer Chinese.
The thing that really pissed me off was what happened last night. Some fcuking idiotic group of mats were playing soccer behind the tent that I was sleeping in. I was lying down, facing the back door which was closed. And those fcukers kicked the ball till it hit on the tent and it hit directly onto my face!!! I was sms-ing with the phone in front of me and the ball made my phone flew forward. OMG! I was really very pissed off that I couldn't sleep. Luckily my cousin went to scold them. So I was lying down again in the same position. But the same thing happened again!! It hit my face!! Bloody idiots! I feel like taking a knife and but that ball into pieces. Not enough, I can cut their own balls into pieces too. Furthermore, they were playing soccer while swearing and cursing each other, "Eh babi!", "Siol ah." Omg. It started even before that bloody ball hit me. How the hell was I gonna sleep in peace!! Freaking asshole-ic mats! Go get a life elsewhere lah. Don't find trouble where innocent people sleep. I was really swearing and cursing at that point of time. Another time, I was really gonna chop their balls with a knife and throw them into the sea! Luckily they didn't let it happen again.

Sheeesh. I really need someone to be beside me to motivate me to study and do homework. Otherwise, I would be lazing around, using the comp or talk on the phone for hours. Someone please sit beside me and study so that I'll be influenced.

Christina Aguilera is really one crazy freak, shouting on the mic like nobody's business when millions pairs of eyes are looking.

Eversince the camera was gone, my blog hasn't been full of pictures. Can someone buy me a new digicam for my birthday next month?? =(

yaybbadabedoo!

2007-02-09T21:37:00.000+08:00

Last night was my second time going to the Mediacorp auditorium. =) And it's thanks to the same group of people who let me go to the Mediacorp place for the 1st time. Yay!

Yesterday during recess, Rika offered me to go to watch Dance Floor results show. Obviously, I just had to accept it because it might be the last time I can go there.

The Dance Club instructor, Kay Lee, joined the Dance Floor with the whole group of girls with the group name Platinum. She is also the dance instructor for our Hip Hop Dance in CHOICES. So she gave away free tickets to a lot of people in Dance Club and although I'm not in dance club, Rika said there were extra tickets so she invited me. Yayy!

We were supposed to meet at Paya Lebar MRT at 5.25pm but Rika, Kirin and Rahimah were late when I thought I was the latecomer. Hehe. Meanwhile, I bumped into Atiqah and some of her friends. She found out something that I really want to know but in the end, she said she couldn't tell me. =( So sad... But it's ok.

Brudder A made a last minute decision to tag along and watch the Dance Floor so he met us straight at the Mediacorp place. Luckily we reached the place right on time despite the bad traffic jam and the peak hour charge of 2 bucks. Hmmph. Nonetheless, we still managed to get our front seats because some people didn't turn up early enough. So we were allowed to move all the way to the more front seats. The whole thing was just so noisy. So many supporters and all. So many people cheering like mad. Brudder A almost couldn't take it. Lols.

Too bad, Platinum didn't make it to the Top 10. Vice & Pris got through. But the good thing is, all the 8 groups are very good dancers. I was just so turned on by their cool moves, except for the pair of girls who were trying to seduce the judges all the way. They're so bitchy, shaking their asses all the time. And they call that dancing?? What a joke. =P

Anyway, Platinum still have one more chance to make it through because there's still the wildcard show, which I really hope I can go for. I would love to watch the show where there's the dancing part, rather than the results show. Hopefully Kay can give away enough tickets so that I can go, being her previous Hip Hop Dance student in CHOICES last year. =D

Oh yahhh. I almost forgot to talk about this year's first CHOICES lesson. This time, I got jewellery-making (3rd choice). First choice was cooking and second was fencing, I think. At first, I was quite sad that I didn't get cooking. But after today's first jewellery-making session, I find it quite fun. It's quite cool, with all the colourful beads adn blah3. But I don't like the part when we had to make the loops because it's very hard. This kinda thing requires totally delicate workmanship and nothing else. It can be quite frustrating for those who hate to work on small stuffs.

For the first lesson, we made a handphone keychain. Lols. Mine turned out to be quite bad. Why?? Hahaha. Because mine is the longest one in class. It's just so long that nobody wants to use it. Hahaha! I better make it smaller next time.
Now I can't wait for the next session because we were going to make bracelet. =D Yay.

Tomorrow I have to go for Footdrill GOLD workshop when I was supposed to go out with Brudder A, and then to Istilah's birthday party. Hmmph. Tomorrow will be a busy and tiring day for me. =(

O Level Results

2007-02-09T20:31:00.000+08:00

It's scary.
It's very scary.
It's really very scary.
It's really very very scary.

Obviously, I'm referring to the O level results that was announced around 6 hours ago. Like every year, all the current Sec 4s have to witness the announcement of the results together with the previous batch of Sec 4s. Brudder A said something I really agreed. We can finally feel younger again with the older people around with us in the school. Hehe.

The results was like totally crazy and freaky. They showed all the comparisons of results since 2003 all the way to 2006. From year to year, the whole mean subject grade has been improving every single year. And the MSG for 2006 was 2 point something. And that's an overwhelming A2!! How crazy can this be??

I'm not underestimating TK's academic but this kind of results is just so outstanding! Every single subjects' percentage pass and distinction are above national average except for one or two subjects. I can tell that Mr Tan K.H. is not as happy this year as last year because the % distinction for Pure Chemistry has dropped. Last year it was around 98% distinctions, compared to 91% this year. Being the high-standard Science HOD he is, Mr Tan is quite disappointed with the slightest thing gone wrong.

But besides that, the overall results is just so tremendously great. Many of my seniors got 12 points and below. 96% of the whole cohort are qualified for JC and 100% are qualified for Poly. I would rather not mention ITE (not that I look down on the people). In any case, I just have this to say; Well Done to All and Good Luck to the Current Sec 4s for the oncoming O levels in 7 more months!

busy week...

2007-02-05T21:55:00.000+08:00

Just a quick update. I'm supposed to studying geog now but I'm taking the opportunity to blog quickly.

Firstly, congratulations and well done to TKRCY Footdrill Competition squad for getting the 3rd place in the East District. I'm sort of praising myself, in a way. But I really think that we have done quite well, although I wasn't that happy anyway. =)

This week will be another busy week for us. We have test every day except Friday. Tomorrow will be one of the most major test of all - Geography. It's on the new topic on population studies. I'm quite nervous because Mrs Poh didn't really give us much assignments to practice on, before the test. Well at least now we know that Sec 4 life requires loads of self-study. I need to catch up soon. =

Today was quite a happy day for me. Mainly because of Brudder A and some others. For some reason, Brudder A said loads of crappy and lame stuffs that were not supposed to be funny, but I couldn't help laughing, I don't know why. Even though sometimes I'm sick of all the lame things he said, I keep laughing like mad. Maybe I'm just nuts. Anyway, thanks to Brudder A for fasting with me today and studied with me at McD and break-fast with me. =)
Now I realise that I study best with him. Simply because I have someone to study with, and motivate me at the same time. There are just too many distractions at home. Even food and the toilet can distract me. More examples - I'm blogging now when I'm supposed to be studying. That's another distraction. *sigh*

Had pupil-profiling with Ms Goh today. Talked to her about a lot of stuffs. And then she said she's gonna help me check if there's any financial assistance that I can apply for. Yayy! She's quite nice actually but too bad she doesn't teach well. I can sleep in her class... =P

Okayy. Maybe that's all for now. I really hope to blog more often soon and post more pictures. Brudder A's blog is so much nicer now with the new skin and more photos uploaded there... =)

=)

2007-02-02T21:50:00.000+08:00

Today is a more pleasant day than any other day of the week! =) Firstly, me and Aki watched Prison Break last night as it was the last episode. And because of that, I couldn't stop thinking and talking about the show for the whole day!! It has such a great impact on me. You know why?? Because the show is just so nice!! =D I've never regretted watching this show because it's just very nice, full of action and suspense. Being the last episode last night, it was one of the best ones I've ever watched. Watching the show itself made my heart beat so fast. And I must say that this is one of the very few shows that I watch and I have to hold on to my seat coz I'm scared I might fall off my chair!! That's how bad it is. But seriously, all those people who don't watch Prison Break, shame on you. You lose out a lot. Hahaha.. I can't describe just how entertaining Prison Break is. One of the best show I've ever watched. Just so full of suspense. Although some people may really hate and get irritated over suspense, it's good in a way. For every scene, there must be a suspense before they start the commercial break. And before the end of every episode, there must be lots of suspense. It can be super anti-climax because just when the show makes you go very high, it ends. And this makes you wanna watch more. But the bad thing is that you have to wait for 1 whole week before the next episode. But I can really assure everyone that Prison Break is definitely a show not to be missed. I can't wait for the 2nd season to start again!!! =)

Okay.. That is one thing that made me quite high today. Hehe. Today's PE lesson is very fun and cute. Majority of the class played netball using only half the court. And of course, it was super crowded. But the way the people play, is very cute. Lols. When you join in the crowd, it gets very bumpy and you'll bump into everyone around there. But it was just super cute when people keep missing the ball when they're holding it. Lols. I was laughing while playing lah.. Hehe.

Today's FDC training was quite satisfying also. I can finally say that I'm quite happy with everybody's performance today. =) We really have improved so much. And I'm glad to say confidently that we are quite ready for the competition tomorrow. The Footdrill Competition would be at Evergreen Sec Sch and we have to leave school at 7.30am and take a chartered bus all the way there. Well, we are more or less quite confedent of winning the competition tomorrow. We really hope we can bring back the gold trophy again that we won 2 years ago. I'm one of the few people that have the opportunity to take part in the maximum number of Footdrill Competitions, which is 3. And so far, all the competitions that I take part in, TK has won something in the East District. =D Hehes. I'm not trying to say anything lah.. But I just hope after I leave the school, TKRCY continues to win something in FDC. =)

Last but not least,

Good Luck and ALL THE BEST to TKRCY Footdrill Comp squad 2007! Thanks to everyone especially our YOs, Ms Sry, Mr Vincent Tan and Mdm Sarina for your contribution and support. =)

'New Look'!

2007-01-28T21:21:00.000+08:00

I feel a little happier this weekend. =D The break is on again, after Week 4 which is just full of test. The school has set a new record for our batch. We had 7 tests in a row for a single week!! Hurrayyyy! They must be feeling happy to see the Sec 4s being tortured and barbecued. But you know what?? You teachers might not be that happy afterall. Why?? Because obviously, 7 tests in a row is just too horendous for us to cope and we would flunk most of the tests. And the teachers are obviously torturing themselves by inviting their own heartache, seeing us doing very badly for their tests. Muahahahahaha!! I know I'm evil and mean and wadeva. But it's quite true. If they think they're trying to push us by giving us loads of tests in a single week, then they are wrong because they would only be torturing themselves. Oh well, too bad for them and for us. Nobody gets the benefit, so I bet that the whole cohort will recommend that you teachers don't cause your own heartache by not giving us tests. Heheheh! =D

This weekend is the best weekend I've gotten for this year! I'm just fully on for the weekend!! =) The thing that made me happy was that I have nothing on at all for the weekend and so I can do wadeva I want and go wherever I want. Wheeeeee-ness! Yesterday, I went to the library, supposedly to do homework but did only like 5% of it. The rest of the time was spent, distracted by the mall of Tampines! Obviously I'm referring to Tampines Mall. =D Went window-shopping at first. Then went to eat. After that I went to 77th Street to see if there's this black 'dress' that I saw at Parkway's branch. Unfortunately, there was none left. There was only green, purple and red ones but not BLACK!! Hmmmph! The black one was actually connected to a shorts but I hate that! So I was very pissed and disappointed, I didn't buy anything then. After that I went round again and decided to enter Ice Lemon Tee. And to my surprise, I saw another similar one to the one I wanted!!! Hurrraayyyyy!!! And guess what??!! It was only $19.90, compared to the one at 77th Street which was supposed to be $29.90!! OMG! I was super high then. Lols! I immediately tried on it and bought one, with another black and white striped leggings. =D The skirt part was quite short for me that's why I decided to wear it with leggings. And today, I went out wearing it!! =D

This is my 'new look'! No more t-shirt and jeans girl! Hahahaha..... =)

I'm a ticking time bomb...

2007-01-23T20:40:00.000+08:00

I'm finally able to make some time for blogging. =) Reached home at around 8pm just now because of FDC training which was supposed to end at 6.15pm, but it accidentally ended at 6.50pm without us realising it, while we were discussing about some things.

A lot of things are on my mind right now, pissing me off. Firstly, I'm currently having difficulty typing now because for some reason, the keyboard is spoilt because the number 6 keeps appearing all the time. So I have to keep backspacing to get rid of all the number six. Hmpph! It's super annoying.
Second thing, I'm actually very pissed at some people at home. I don't know how to describe it but I know I've been angry for quite a long time. The thing that made it worse is that I have no say in the house. Who am I compared to the elder people right? To them, I'm just an unexperienced person and only they know what's best for me and for the family, right? Then why bother asking me how I feel? It's not like they're gonna take my concerns into consideration right? It's always them making decisions. *sigh* I don't know what else to say. I can't do anything. I'm so hopeless. I'm usually the one at fault even for the things I didn't do. =(

Today's SS test was super crappy. Almost the whole class cheated for the test. Lols. So united. Yet no integrity. Chang Sheng showed people this baby crab that he said he bought from Uncle Chen in the canteen. And it was only 4 bucks. The crab looks cute and he was actually trying to scare people with it. It didn't really work out for me, though.. Hehe. =P

The keyboard is super irritating. I can't even type in peace. Tomorrow got Geog test!! Aaaarghhh. I need a break from studying. Somebody please give me some.... =(
Suddenly I feel so sad now. Hp has been taken away again... =( I reallly feel so freedom-less nowadays. Sometimes I feel like I can't even make a decision that is about myself only. Or am I even given a choice?? Hmmm... Why don't they understand that I'm not that little girl that was once being pushed around anymore?? I'm already Sec 4, that sounds old enough for me. Actually, too old. Yet I still feel like people are stepping on me and pushing me around. Well, be thankful that I'm very patient. If I lose my patience, I will lose trust in you people and that will be the day when I will really run away from everything. It's not like I wanna do this. But some people just force me to. If some people think that I'm still too young for freedom and proper privacy, then it's totally bullshit. I can be very tolerant but there are limits. I am human too. I have feelings too. In fact, I'm more emotional than average. And others have no right to just push me around with their authority just because they ought to be respected by me. Sorry, I won't give respect to people who misuse authorities and trying to control other people's life.
I'm not saying that I'm completely stubborn and that my life is just my life. It's not like I don't listen to advices and what not. But people are just overdoing what they are supposed to do. And that really gets on my nerves. Well I just hope there won't be a time when I'll explode. I've caused enough problems to everyone. I don't wanna start another one but if some people ask for it, I'm left with no choice.

2007-01-21T14:47:00.000+08:00

I know this blog is a bit too outdated. Well sorry, readers(if there's any). I think I'm apologising to noone coz nobody reads my blog anyway right?? Even if they do, they can't be bothered to tag and say a simple hi. Man...I'm so disappointed. Anyway, it doesn't matter to them. So why should I bother.. =/

I think I haven't been having enough time to rest for the 5 weekdays. Every single day this weekday, I've been coming home after 7pm. Thanks to TK and its trademark of giving lots of homeworks, tests, exams, revisions, remedials, extra lessons and what-nots. Now I can understand why there are no common tests for Sec 4s. Basically, because we have tests almost everyday. Next week (week 4) will be the most hectic week of all (for now), but there will be a lot more to come. Wanna know my schedule for week 4?? Monday got A Maths revision test and Chem revision test. Tuesday is Social Studies 25-marks test, Wednesday is Geog revision test, English summary test and Malay test. Thursday is another A Maths test. That's all for now. Hopefully, there's no test on Friday so that I can rest my brain for awhile.

I'm supposed to be doing homework and studying intensively now but I'll take up some time to entertain myself a bit.

I had to attend this Footdrill Competition training for 3 days consecutively because it's in a form of camp. We had one on Thursday at 4.30pm. But something funny happened before that. Verity broke the Red Cross room key as she was trying to lock the door from outside!! Hahaha! So the key was stuck inside the hole but luckily the door wasn't locked yet!! Lols! Then I called Ms Sry to inform her and she was also laughing!!! Hahaha! Wth. In the end, Ms Sry informed the OM(Mr Ng) and somehow, they managed to get the broken hey out of the hole. Lols! omg, it was so funny. No?? Ok nvm. =P

Then on Friday, all those people involved in FDC had to bring big bags to school. Why?? Because the FDC training camp starts on Friday. We were not allowed to go home first and get our stuffs so we had to bring everything in the morning. But it was only until yesterday so it wasn't much of a problem besides the weight.
I must say that there's a lot of improvement in our FDC squad this time. Better drills, more serious-ness and blah3. We have improved a lot from this whole training camp. Yay! And another bonus to add to the satisfaction, TKRCY FDC squad won the Fairfield Mathodist FDC squad in the friendly competition on Saturday. Yayyy! The friendly match was in our school at 8.30am in the morning, just after we had roti prata for breakfast, sponsored by Mr V Tan! =D But the bad thing is, that we won them by just a margin, I think. That's because their standard is about the same as us, but we are just slightly better. =)
Overall, the whole camp was very fun and satisfying and tiring. All of them are good in some ways so I have no complaints. =) It was the slackiest camp we ever had. Dinner was bought by the guys including Mr Tan. But we still have to fork out our own money. For the Muslims, he bought 1 packet of Mee Goreng and 1 packet if Mee Hoon Goreng to be shared between the 3 of us (me, Shahirah, Syafiqah). It was very nice but it was really a lot. 1 packet is more than half of what I usually eat. But it was really yummmylicious!! Supper was the best meal we had for the camp!! Because we ordered McDonalds!! Yay-ness! Mr Tan allowed us to order McD delivery. But since we were really full, we all ordered either apple pie or drinks and some fries. But it was really nice to eat fastfoods for camp. =) Whheeeeee! I love FDC training camp! =D

Okay. Maybe that's all for this week. I hope I'm gonna study intensively after this. =)

Weekends!

2007-01-13T12:14:00.000+08:00

Weekends are here again!! I think I shall agree with Serena's MSN PM. The best days of the week are weekends! Veru true for Sec 4s. Finally the weekends are here again for us to take a short break before continuing to sink our noses into books and worksheets and homeworks. More revisions, more tests, more homeworks. I'm supposed to be studyinng for history test next week. But for some reason, the printer is spoiled so I can't print out my notes. Chemistry and history tests are coming up next week. Gotta study soon.

Hmm... I wanna go library to study with Abang A. but he wanna rest at home. So maybe I'll just study alone at home. Hopefully, my siblings won't disturb me with their noise pollution.
Mum is cooking Roti Kirai!! My favourite!! Yummmy! I want to eat soon but she's not done cooking since I woke up just now at 8am.

It's been raining for days. I wonder when it's gonna stop. Yesterday so many people were wearing sweaters in school. And for some reason, I decided to be different by bringing an umbrella, the one like a walking stick. Lols! I didn't know why I brought it and not the compact one. But I realised that the stick umbrella is not that bad because it does not make your bag heavier unlike the compact one which will make your bag heavier especially when it is wet. Hehes. But the bad thing is, if you leave your stick umbrella hanging on the window, you might forget to bring it home. But luckily I remembered. =)

Yesterday was saRaLi's anniversary again!! 12 January! 1 year and 3 months! 15 months! =DD Congrats to saRaLi! Yayy!
But this month, it's not surprising that we manage to go out to celebrate our anniversary again. Coz it falls on a Friday. Had to be involved for RedCross training. Hmmphh! We were having FDC training at the assembly plaza and WeeZong was sick so I had to be the commander. But the rain was so annoying. It was on-off. So we had to stop several times, then continue again.
Meanwhile, there were 2 casualties yesterday, which is quite a lot compared to other trainings. One was a guy from NPCC and something happened to his legs, he complained it was very painful. WeeZong and Aaron applied ice-pack and he was really in pain like mad. He seems like he was going to give birth because there were 2 first aiders there, and his 2 other MALE sec 4 seniors who had to hold both his hands. Lols! I don't mean to be mean but I've never seen such a casualty. The other casualty was my primary school friend, Syafiq. He was playing soccer and injured his hands and legs. 6 bruises altogether. I thought WeeZong was quite evil coz he wanted to apply some medicine on the wounds and Syafiq was screaming in pain. That's another casualty acting like giving birth. Haha! I'm evil.

FDC training was unfortunately disappointing. I didn't know that our standard was this low. I don't mean to discriminate our own FDC squad but I think that we really have a lot to catch up on. They all know all the commands and they did it well. But their basics are not right. Simple things like posture and jerking of movements are not there. That's the most disappointing factor. Haiss.. Mr Tan wanted this stoopid friendly match with Fairfield Methodist Sec next Saturday during our FDC training camp. =( I think we're are very unprepared lah... *sigh*

Anyway, thanks to Abang A for waiting for me yesterday and accompanying me home. =) Sorry coz can't go out with you for so many days already. Tight schedule.

I think I need someone to motivate me to study more and be more hardworking. I can't help being lazy but I really wanna study. Someone help me please..... =((

Tired..

2007-01-11T21:47:00.000+08:00

Hey you! Look at the word above this sentence. What does it say? Tired.. That's right. I know I'm lame. Wadeva lah tok. Yeah. That's what I shall describe myself. Only the second week of school and I'm already very tired. I think school today sucks. The new physics chapter sucks totally. Super boring and complicated. If I had a choice, I would choose not to bother at all. But I don't have a choice k.. Have to study and study and study for stoopid O levels for my future and blah3. All this just to have a good life. Well what's the use of having a good life if you don't even prepare for your after-life right?? Hmmm... Okay I shall admit that I'm guilty but I'm still trying to fight to overcome all these life's miseries. Well hopefully I can not only survive, but also survive well.

I think I like Human Geog's new topic about population. It's quite interesting. Maybe because Mrs Lena Poh teach us?? Hmm.. Mrs Poh is just so nice lah. I like her. But she can be quite boring sometines. She's just one of those very understanding and nice and kind teacher. I know Atiqah has to agree with me coz Mrs Poh bought her some bag as a birthday present when she jokingly asked for it. =) But sometimes I pity her a lot for having to go through so much and having to entertain with my annoying classmates' mischief. She's very patient but of course, there's a limit and she doesn't flare up as often as other teachers like Mrs Hwang. Bluek!

Okay. Back to my life. Yes, fortunately I'm still surviving. But I'm already quite exhausted. I feel like asking for a break but I know it's not yet. I can have all the break I want after O levels, for 3 months before starting a new chapter of life. Now, I'm already sweating and exhausted. Soon, I'll be panting like mad, but hopefully I won't faint. I will survive and hopefully I will survive well. =)

For these few days, I haven't been having enough sleep and rest. Everyday I reach home later than 7pm.

The date is postponed from 25th May to 8th June because of my O level Malay paper on 28th May.. Good luck to me. =)

2007-01-07T21:39:00.000+08:00

It's been a week since I last updated. Hmm.. So what does that tell you?? Err.. I dread mentioning this but I've been busy for almost a week. And yes, believe it or not, it's only the first week of 2007, 3 days of school plus Saturday, 2 days of lessons. Hard to believe right?? But it's true. I've been busy. Urghh.. I'm not really sure if I'm prepared for all these but I just hope everything turns out fine and at the end of the day, I want all these trouble to be paid off with excellent O level results! =)

First day of school is, as usual slacky and sucky. Lucky thing I only managed to attend 1 period. That's because I managed to get the green form and leave school at 8.15am because I had an appointment with the specialist at SGH~the hospital I was born in!! Lols. =P
Okay. Went there with my parents. We had to wait quite long coz the appointment was supposed to be at 9am but we reached early. It was quite troublesome. Had to go for the X-Ray. This time, it was more expensive because I had to pose like a model for the radiologist to take my X-Ray. Lols. But the diff between me and a model is that a model gets paid for posing for the camera. But I have to pay to pose for the X-Ray! Hahaha!!
The date is set. 25th May. Something very major is gonna happen on that day. Worse still, it's happenning to me! Hmmph! But now, I just find out that I'll be sitting for O level Malay paper on 28th May. So we have to postpone the thing to a week later. For those who know, what's gonna happen, good for you. For those who don't know, it's for me to know and for you to find out. =)

Second day of school. Not that bad. But I think the timetable sucks. We still had to go through 3 period of maths. =( But the good news is that most of the teachers remain the same, except for a few bad ones. The good old teachers are Mr Tan Kee Hoe and Mrs Lena Poh! =D And our new form teacher's name is also Ms Goh. But she's Ms Goh Poh Geok, not the old Ms Goh Pin Zi. Well I hope the new Ms Goh is also fun and not that fierce. She teaches us Physics, still.
After school, there was A Maths lesson in the audi. After that was FDC training until about 5.15 when it was supposed to end at 6.30pm. It's thanks to the rain that we could go home earlier. But what's the diff anyway. I still had to stay in school so late till 5 plus. Anyway, thanks so much abang for waiting for me.
Reached home, did some homework till night and slept.

Third day of school was on Friday. Maybe the most tiring day of all. Had more homeworks. And still had to stay in school till 6.45 for RedCross training. Well at least training wasn't that bad this time. It was quite slacky except for the FDC training, thanks to Reinaldo Sir. He was really fun, man!! We all love him so much!! Yayy! Training is always so much better with him around. Coz we all really feel like training hard to win the competition whenever he is around. Although it was quite tiring, it was still fun and worth it. He's such an inspirational leader!! He's so my idol!! =)
Other than that, we managed to bash up Aaron for his birthday. Lols! We all grabbed him and then poured water on him! He was so damn wet till he complained that he didn't bring extra underwear!! Hahah! We managed to wet Syafiqah also coz her birthday was just over like 1 and a half weeks ago?? Yup. In the end, she took revenge on me and I was a bit wet. In the end, almost everybody else who contributed to the bash was wet also. Haha. Luckily I brought extra t-shirt. =)
Again, thanks abang for waiting for me and sending me home. =)

Saturday was CCA recruitment day for the sec 1s so most of us had to go to school to 'promote' our CCAs. I was so damn high a lot of time coz I got to see that hot guy. Hahaha! Walked past him a few times. And managed to witness his cute eating style. Lols! I'm so mad lah.. Dots. I got to leave early again on that day because I had to go and collect the bursary award thingy. It's a waste of time bringing the red cross full-u coz I only wear it for a good half-an-hour. Hmmmph. Shouldn't have brought it at all lah!
The bursary award collection was at Bedok Green Sec and it was a total waste of time!! I reached there a bit late. And still had to wait for a long 45 minutes before it was my turn to collect the cheque. The person asked us to get back to our seats but heck! Everybody left after getting their money! Haha! Sadly, this was the first time in my entire life that I had to collect the bursary award alone. Anyway, after that I didn't feel like going home so I went to merayap somewhere else.

I have a feeling that 2007 is gonna be a bad year for me. It's barely the 7th day of the year and so many bad things happened. The busy-ness of me with all the school work and tests and FDC preparation, had a tiff with parents, blah3.. I shall not say more.

For all those people who are having fun in your life during the first week of 2007, good for you. Cherish those enjoyable moments. =)

Happy New Year!!

2007-01-01T15:59:00.000+08:00

It's already 2007 now. Happy New Year to everyone!! =) Time seems to travel so fast these days. I bet all those sec 4 `07 batch have their new year resolutions and one important one if of coz, O levels. We are less than a year more to O levels. And we've got like half the O level syllabus more to learn as well as to revise the whole O level syllabus. I guess we're like really in a rush for all these. So we, as well as our teachers gotta work together to achieve good results AGAIN! Yup, when we did well, the school will always say that the standard is going up. So they ALWAYS make it sound like WE made the school's standard go UP. I don't know what's their problem and why reputation is always so important to the school. It's always like that. When someone did something wrong out of the school, they will say "You have tarnished the school reputation." And when someone did something good, they will say "You've made the school proud." They never fail to mention about the school's name and face! Hais.... Anyway, that's their problem and we can't really blame them much.

The new year is here now! So what's so good about it? I don't know. And what's bad? Lots. Sec 4 life, O levels, memories of 2006 blah blah blahhhhhhh......... So what's my new year resolution?? Hmmm.. Actually I got quite a lot lah. Lazy to mention all of them here. Actually I don't really believe in new year resolutions. There's nothing special about it actually. It's just like a goal in life that you wanna achieve in the year. But when you forget all about it or have made to achievement about it, then it's totally meaningless right?? Right! It's just the same as making a promise to yourself or setting a target or goal, something you wanna achieve within a period of time. So this resolution thingy can be made at any time of the year and it's even more meaningful if you can achieve what you want. No point making this new year resolution and then forget all about it. Okay. I think I talk too much already. That's the problem with me. I talk too much.

One thing that makes me dread going to school: I hate those bitches and I hope not to bump into them. If only I didn't have the chance to know them at all.

Goodbye holidays. Hello Sec 4 life. =|

2006-12-30T17:52:00.000+08:00

Hello hello. Holidays are coming to an end soon.. Hmmph! Gosh. I so dread going through sec 4 life especially being in TK. Hmm.. I've heard all those complaints and whining of our seniors about all the stress and all being in sec 4. Just by knowing that sec 4s don't get to go for most of the assembly periods on Wednesdays, I'm already quite umm......nervous?? Hehe. I don't want school to reopen because of the coming sec 4 life for us, yet I want school to reopen coz I prefer school life and holiday life. Okay. I think it's too complicated for me to explain. So nvm...

So have you finished your homeworks?? Wait.. Have you even started??? Haha. Although I started early enough, I still haven't completed it. Aaarghh! I'm starting to panic! Haven't done Social Studies yet. Bluek ah! Hmmph. I hate homeworks. Actually, who doesn't?! Lol.

Anyway, I know I might be having unnecessary worries about the stress in Sec 4 life. But optimism is the way!! Yayy! Haha. Credits to my abang for this. =)

Now, we have 3 more public holidays to enjoy ourselves as much as we can before plunging our noses down again into books and files and worksheets. Shit! I just remembered that we still have to study for Geography and Physics test when school reopens. Urghhh! Okay. I think the Sec 4 stress thingy has already started before school reopens. Hmmph! Well, I hope I'll be more serious this coming 2007 and take things optimistically. =)

So most probably, I'll spend Monday and Tuesday rushing homework as well as revise to the fullest. People, don't be surprise if I don't update my blog that often anymore next year. And even if I blog, don't be surprised if I always blog about studies. So you don't have to be surprised if I become a study nerd next year. And don't be surprised if I start to wear glasses next year. And many more things that you shouldn't be surprised about, should there be any changes happening to me next year. =)

As you can see, this time I'm really very enthu and semangat about being serious next year. I hope I will really take things seriously next year. And should I give up halfway, I would be very disappointed in myself. For now, good luck to me and all those Sec 4 `07 batch in TK. =)
And also, Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha to all Muslims. =)

Prison Break

2006-12-28T21:38:00.000+08:00

I wanna watch watch watch!! Prison Break!!! Yay-ness! Okay.. There's nothing to 'Yay' about. But I'm just doing it for fun?? Fun?? Is it fun?? Okay. Whatever. I'm nuts. Thanks to Aki, I'm starting to get addicted to Prison Break. Nope, it's not a movie, it's some show about people in prison. It's cool. Wait....actually it's very cool! Hahaha. Suspense all the way!! I loikee!! =)) A few seconds ago, Aki just said, "I'm proud of you" after glancing at what I'm typing. Lol. I dunno when is the last episode of Prison Break but I know for sure that I can't wait to watch today's episode at 10pm later. The lead actor is quite hot. Michael Scofield! I loike his name and I dunno why also. =P

Currently, Aki is shiok sendiri, having fun by himself by doing stoopid wrestling stunts. That childish 13 (minus 1 is 3) yrs old kid might never change. Bluek! I'm gonna watch Prison Break!!!

Holidays...

2006-12-25T11:50:00.000+08:00

I just realised that this is my 188th post so far. Is that a lot? Umm.....maybe not yet. Anyway, I'm not at home now. I'm at Buangkok (aunt's place). Been staying overnight since Saturday, after school. I don't know when I'm going back home coz my mum says she wants to relieve stess here. When she's done, we can go home, which is either today or tomorrow or wednesday.

I went to Vivo City on Saturday night with Aki, Yayah, Kak Izah and Kak Irah. Wheeee!! I think I went there for more than 5 times already but I still have not gotten used to where the shops are and stuff. Walked around, ate at BK, took photos with Santa Claus and Xmas trees. Yay! Oh! I suddenly remembered the fruitips that I haven't finished! It's stil in the fridge. Heheh. Okay. By the time we were going home, it was already like 10.30pm. The whole mall is supposed to close at midnight but it seems like they will have a very difficult time chasing people out of the mall at midnight. The later it gets, the more people come and it was quite crowded. Yayah got her giraffe balloon made by this stressed-out clown, after queueing for a good 20 minutes or more. Lols.
And yesterday, we went out again but this time, to Kovan with more people. Me, Yayah, Kak Izah, Kak Irah, Mum, aunt Wak Mah, uncle Wak Said. Went around looking for the 1960's clothes for Kak Izah, then ate at KFC! I haven't eaten KFC for a long time sia.. Finally somebody belanja. Hahaha! The mums shop for groceries at cold storage then finally we went home at about 9 or 10 plus. Wheee!
Today, we're going to cousin abg Jali's house to see his 3rd newborn baby girl. Should be going out later at about 1 plus. After that, I don't know whether we're going out anymore or not. It was quite tiring, walking around for hours but I loikee!! =)
When I get home, I'm so gonna finish up my last bits of homework which is 2 social studies essays and 4 SBQ, plus the other half of the Chemistry worksheet. And I still have to study quite a number of topics and subjects coz they will give some test when school reopens! Aaaarghhh! I dread going thruogh sec 4 life.

Ps: Thanks abg for making my life better. I really feel so much better now. You did the right thing on Saturday. =)

Birthday Wishes to December babies

2006-12-22T13:17:00.000+08:00

Birthday wishes first!! Happy Belated Birthday to Rahimah and Atiqah. Happy Birthday to my cousin Kak Marina who turns 20+ today! Happy Advance Birthday to Syafiqah, Amirul and Azza. Hope all you December babies have fun on your special day! =D Aper lah, all you December babies who are turning 15 this year. Orang lagi less than 3 months dah boleh tengok NC16 movies, korang baru nak but IC. Hahahaha. I'm so evil. Anyway, all the best to you all! =)

12 more days to her appointment at GH to confirm the operation date. She's nervous and still feeling miserable thinking of it.

Are you afraid??

2006-12-17T18:10:00.000+08:00

Let's start this post with a question. Are you afraid of operation? Yes?? Okay. This is what my mum said yesterday in the car.

Mum: Saper tak takut operation? Semorang takut operation. Macam ikan, badannye kene potong!
Mum: Who is not afraid of operation? Everybody also scared of operation. Your body is cut like a fish.

Yup, that's so true lah.. Imagine that's gonna happen to you. How would you feel? Obviously you would be nervous before entering the operation room right. Not only the fear, if you come from a middle to low income family, the money is another thing to worry about. You'll just add up the burden to your family's financial problem right?? Right! And so you will feel sad right? Right! Everybody will know about it and talk about it right? Right! So everybody will talk about you going for the operation right? Right! And would you be proud to be a subject of everybody's conversations? NO!! What's there to be proud of when you've disappointed your family with the financial burden and also all the trouble going to and fro the hospital? And you'll get hospitalised for god-knows-how-long. And you would be going through all these misery, facing the loneliness in the hospital, eating the horrible hospital food, contribute to your family's financial burden, wasting your time and everybody's time who will be visiting you, and all these for something you didn't even do!!!!

You've never asked for all these. It's not even your fault, that something like this have to happen to you. But people are looking down on you. How would you feel???

Ouch-ness! Ewww-ness!

2006-12-15T13:23:00.000+08:00

The bruise on my toe is very disgusting and such a horrible sight, I must say. Even I'm disgusted with something that's on me!! It's not that big, but it's disgusting coz u can see all the red flesh and blood. And today, something quite shocking happened to the wound. Just now, I was using the comp and my mum called me from my room to check on my madrasah books. So I walked to the bedroom and when I was done, I walked out again towards the comp. Then my mum suddenly shouted and shocked me. Then I realised that there was a lot of blood trail from my room [the spot where I went to], to the comp. I was so scared, I thought my period came and I didn't wanna be embarassed in front of my brother. And then my mum pointed out to my wound. And I realised that it was bleeding quite heavily!!!! Hahaha! It was just so disgusting to see the blood oozing out. What more, the blood is very thick and sticky!! Wahlauu! Even I was disgusted to wipe the blood of the wound. And I had to clean all the blood trail which was like 2 meters long!!! Hahahaha! I just hope it doesn't ever bleed like that again! It was damn scary lah! Hahaha! The funny thing is that I didn't even feel any pain so that's why I didn't realise that it was bleeding. Hahaha. And then my mum say, how can I be so scared and disgusted with blood when I'm in RedCross?!?! Lols.

I want the wound to heal faster!!!!

boredom strikes back...

2006-12-14T17:36:00.000+08:00

I have this to say: School holidays are boring!

Yes, I admit that holidays sucks. The only good thing is that we get a break from all the stress, and tests, and homeworks and sucky teachers. The bad thing is that we don't get to meet our friends, we don't get money everyday, we can't go out everyday, we are bored to death, we have piles of homework to do, family vacations can suck sometimes, life is just so boring!!

Like Atiqah, I want school to start faster!! I hate holidays coz they can make our lives miserable. I wanna go to school!! Now I want time to go faster, unlike those desperate moments when I wished time would stop coz I was rushing to study for exams. Urghh! Although I'm so not looking forward to a more stressful sec 4 life and O levels, I just prefer to go to school where life is just much more interesting. Hais...

Someone please ask me out! I'm bored to death at home and doing homework sucks! I've finished doing one whole Chemistry worksheet. Still got another set of Chem worksheet, A Maths, and Social Studies essay and source-based questions! Aaarghh! I hate homeworks so much!

Kak Izah! Kak Irah! Biler nak pergi Vivo City?!?!?!
Cepat lah! Orang dah desperate ni nak pergi chill..

People, wish me luck because I have an appointment with the Health Promotion Board tomorrow. For those who don't know, I've been suffering with this kind of funny 'disorder' or this cacat-ness called Scoliosis. That means, my spine is not straight, it's curvy, like the letter 'S'. Yes, I'm serious, I am CACAT! And this is the bloody reason why I'm still short! Coz this cacat-ness slows down my growth and my height has been the same for the past 3 years! I know, that's very sad, but I never ask for all these. It's been like this since I was in Sec 1 and so far, there has been no improvement despite the same kind of 'treatment' given to prevent it from worsening. The appointment is once every 6 months and for each appointment, I have to take an X-Ray to find out how my spine is doing. I haven't been taking good care of my spine for the past few months, so I just hope that it does not worsen, or else I might have to go for an operation to make my spine straight! Hmmph! The very sad thing is, I might stay at this height for the rest of my life. And luckily, I'm smart enough to think for my future: I need to watch my diet closely and make sure that I don't grow fat because I have to remember that I might not be able to grow taller anymore. So if I continue eating the same way, I might just grow horizontally and not vertically. =D So somehow, I must maintain my weight. Btw, I just found out something yesterday. My sister took out my mum's weighing scale yesterday for the fun of it and so I checked my weight. And I'm proud to say that I have lost 5.5kg surprisingly!! Hahahaha! Yay-ness! But I won't be aneroxic for sure becoz of my strong love for chocolates! Yay!!

Btw, Happy Belated Anniversary to saRaLi. They turned 14 months on Tuesday, 12 Dec. =D

Ouch-ness!

2006-12-10T11:16:00.000+08:00

These few days, I've been suffering. Just because of my stoopid clumsiness, I've been in pain. From Thursday onwards lah.. Pathetic me have been suffering in silence. =((
Cheyy... I sound so pathetic and sad eh. Haha. It's not that bad lah. It's just my middle toe of my right foot that is a little scalded from the half-boiling lauk that spilled on Thursday night. Yes, I admit, I'm very clumsy and dumb. But that's me lah. It was very painful at first, I thought my toe was gonna melt!! But it didn't!!!! Hahahaha! It was still as perfect as ever! But it was very painful lah! Tak bleh angkat seh! Sampai nangis dibuat-nyer.. When I was rinsing my toe under running tap-water, I could still feel the burning sensation. And minutes and hours after that, I could still feel hte burning sensation and everytime it was burning, I had to make sure that it must be touching water. So I had been sitting like dumb kid, holding the spray that my mum use while ironing clothes, and spray on my toe once in a while.
Then I noticed that a big blister had grown!! It was really super big lah!! My mum can even make a joke out of it, saying that it will grow bigger like a hot-air balloon till I float up, up and away!! Hahahahah! That is so merepek to the max!!
In the end, I applied some toothpaste to the blister. I could still feel the burning sensation but can't spray water on it anymore, and just had to tahan the pain.. ='(

The next morning, I woke up and found out that the blister had burst when I was sleeping! Hahah! There goes the big blister. Now it's just back to my normal perfect toe itself. But more pain was about to come. Hours later, I discovered that part of my skin on the same spot, had torn till I could see the red flesh, but it wasnt bleeding. It was painful once again, but not that bad.

The next day, which was a Saturday, my family went to Sentosa to picnic at Tanjong Beach. And I was wondering how I was gonna swim and enjoy in the sea water with all the sand, when my toe was still hurting. So I just put plaster on the wound, and went to swim with Yayah for about an hour only. Then I took out the plaster, and found that a lot of sand was under the plaster, on the wound!! OUCHH!! No wonder it had been so painful when I was in the water. Lols! I put a new piece of plaster and after that, I didn't get into the water anymore coz I can't imagine what would happen if the sand got on the wound again and scratch the whole thing! Ewwww-ness! Okayy. So while the rest of my family members were enjoying in the water, I had to just sit down there, miserably.. Hais..
We didn't go to any other part of Sentosa. In the evening, we went to Serangoon Garden to eat first before going home. Me and Aki ate this Roti Jon from this popular stall that was displaying so many awards and certificates. And then my father said this peribahasa, "Indah khabar dari rupa." And it was true! Haha. It means, that the Roti Jon was not as good as what people say. Seriously, I think the one that my mum made is nicer lah! Hmmph. Okay, after that we went home and my toe is still hurting.

Now, the wound is moist and sticky, I want it to disappear!! It's such an ugly sight lah! Urghhh! Irritating sakk.. I hope it better goes away soon. =P

5 days in a row!

2006-12-04T20:51:00.000+08:00

Yesssaa!! I've been enjoying life lately. And all because of the people around me! As the title says, I went on outings for 5 days consecutively!! Yay-ness! HapySarah! Hahahahaha! Okay, I shall not copy the HapyHadys. If I had a fanclub called HapySarah, nobody would wanna join it, anyway. =P
Yups, I think I have quite a lot of things to blog about the recent outings. I've been trying to use the comp for 3-4 days but didn't get to, because of some inconsiderate people around. It's become part of my life and I'm getting used to all these but it's still bugging me quite a lot. Okayy.. Enough of all that.. Let's get back to blogging about my enjoyable life. =D

Wednesday, 29 Nov
I was supposed to be free the whole day. But since I was too free, my mum asked me to go Bedok Int to buy some things while my mum went to accompany my grand-aunt to the hospital. And so, I brought my Yayah along to accompany me buy the stuffs.
One of the things I was supposed to do was go to KFC to renew Yayah's Chicky Card. Only Kids below 12 yrs old can own this membership card and of coz, it was Yayah's. Although it was hers, my mum gave it to me since I eat KFC more often. My mum signed up the membership for Yayah just becoz she wanted the Chicky bag and some other goodies for kids. It was $10 but it could last for the whole year.
So we went to Bedok KFC to renew the card but unfortunately, it was out of stock and the person suggested that we go other places like Parkway. So I decided to go to Parkway with Yayah just to renew the card. And when I told her that there's fountain at Parkway, she became so hyper and excited. Duh! What do you expect from a 5-year-old. Haha. In the bus, we ate the chocolate waffle that I bought and after eating, Yayah unexpectedly fell asleep! Lols. However, as soon as we got off the bus, Yayah woke up and unexpectedly became hyper again!! Obviously, she was excited to play at the fountain. But as soon as we got there, I realised that they switched off the fountain coz they had put a gigantic Xmas tree there. Yayah was a little disappointed but she didn't really mind anyway. Coz I finally got to renew the Chicky Card and she managed to get a new blue Chicky bag. So she was hyper again and immediately carried the empty bag. Lols. After that, we walked around Parkway [only at the basement level]. Expectedly, Yayah entered any shop that has toys in them. After that, we went home. Although it was just a short outing, it was quite fun to go out with this clowny sister of mine. =D

Thursday, 30 Nov
I had footdrill comp training in the morning. Attendence was very pathetic and disappointing. So it's not surprising that it's a very slacky training although KK sir was there too. We actually ordered McDonalds and ate in school. Lols. Then we continued training. After that, I met my mum, Yayah and Aki outside the school, in the bus. We were supposed to go Bugis together since there's a sale at Bugis street. As usual, my mum took such a long time to find a suitable bag for herself, always looking at the price and comparing them. I thought we walked around the entire place at least 2-3 times. Anyway, it's always nice to go shopping with my mum coz she pays for it and I don't have to save up my own money to go shopping on my own. =P Hehe. That's why I got my mum to buy me a new watch, belt and shades. =) Yay-ness!
After we're done with the mini-shopping, we went inside for Yayah to play at the fountain since she couldnt play with the one at Parkway. Lols. She sure had a lot of fun, although we didn't bring any extra clothes for her to get totally wet. Here's some pics. =)

She's wet, she's bare-footed, her pants are rolled up and she's enjoying herself. =)

Yayah and the Xmas decoration.

Nur Syakirah at bugis. I'm the odd one out, wearing uniform. The most irritating part is that the 13-year-old childish kid is taller than me!

Friday, 1 Dec
This is one of the best days ever among the 5 days of outing. Yay-ness! Coz I met someone and got some things! Hahahah! Okayy.. Yes, my intention was to go to Vivo City to meet Hady! He's gonna be there at the 7-eleven opening, from 5pm to 6pm. Yayy! Hehes.
In the afternoon, I had followed my mum to the mosque with Yayah along as well, while Aki stayed at home after his Friday prayers. After the class, we met up with Aki at the bustop to go to Vivo City together but he got us quite mad for being half an hour late! Then it was already 4.45pm. Then I remembered that the HapyHadys are meeting up at 4.15pm and I had told them that I was going. But eventually, I didn't meet them. =P Hehes.
The bus journey was super super long.. About 45 minutes lah. But the journey was nice coz the bus was on the Benjamin Sheares' Bridge at one point and we got to view the whole Marina Bay. There was this Malay couple on the bus and the girl was wearing tuudong. And they were being intimate, but not so intimate. And then I realised how horrible the sight was, even though they were not that too intimate. But it was still a horrific sight to see people in tuudong doing something illegal. Okay.. Now I know how unpleasant it is to see such stuffs and I must remind myself about that. Hehes. =D
By the time we reached Vivo City, it was already about 5.30pm! Yayah was excited when she saw so many kids holding balloons. Obviously, she wants one also. So we had to find some sources of balloons on the way. Immediately, we headed towards 7-eleven, which was just next to GV cinema. The place is quite secluded so the crowd wasn't that big. But still, there was a crowd around there. So I went in through the crowd with Yayah along and finally I saw Hady and Jonathan!! The very first thing I noticed about them is that their make-up is SUPER THICK!!! Really... Haha! Like anybody cares. But immediately when I saw them, my heart raced and I became so hyper suddenly. I felt like screaming but nothing came out. And I thought I was gonna faint but it didn't happen either. I was just feeling so hyper and different!! Hahaha! So we took pictures of them with 3 different cameras. One of them is a real camera and the other 2 are the phone cameras! Hahah! They were sitting down and signing autographs on their posters, giving smiles to cameras once in a while. Then there was a queue for people to get to meet them, provided they have to buy some things from 7-eleven, worth at least $5 only!! Isn't that just so damn bloody easy to get to meet them! Haha! Obviously, I wouldn't wanna miss the chance. So I got my mum to buy some food from 7-eleven. Being thrifty that she is, she spent exactly $5. Hehe. Thats her lahh..
Immediately when I got the receipt, I went to queue with Yayah and realised that nobody else was queueing! Lols. The woman asked me, "Hady or Jonathan?". Obviously, I said Hady!! Haha. Immediately, I was directly in front of him! OMG! Then I thought, 'I'm actually excited over my own relative!' Haha! Ok, I'll tell you about the relative part later, but Hady is REALLY my relative, in a not so indirect way. =D
I was so super excited, that I think I was actually squeezing Yayah's hand! Hahahaha! And since I had my mum's phone on my other hand, I immediately took a photo of him and he gave a smile! Yayyy! Then he asked for my name. Wahlauu! Why not ask for my number?!?!! Hahahah! So I told him my name and then he wrote some things on the poster. And just before he could give me the poster, my mum called me from behind and asked to take picture with him. So me and Yayah get to picture with Hady! Haha. Honestly, I was tempted to tell him that he's actually our relative. But the crowd was very noisy and I could hardly even hear his voice. After that, he handed me the poster. Then, I shook hands with him and Yayah shook hands with him too!! Yayy!!! Then we berambus from there!! There goes Hady! But I still got his poster! He wrote "To Sarah, Best Wishes!" And his signature was there. Yayy!! The poster had his photo on it and a 2007 calendar which takes up a small space at the bottom of the poster. =D Happy Me!!

People(esp Kak Izah, Atiqah and other fans of Hady)!
Tell me you're jealous!! Hahaha!

It was 4.45pm by then. I wanted to bring Yayah to the top of Vivo City so that we can play at the pool there. But it was closed since there would be some grand opening of Vivo City at night. So we went to the playground for awhile for Yayah to play there. After that, we went to eat at BK! Then me and Aki wanted to enter Toys R Us but it was already nightime so we went home. Just as we got out of the main entrance, there was this huge screen that is about 2 storeys high and the speaker produces very loud sound such that u can actually feel your clothes vibrating to the sound. The screen shows what was actually happening at the sky park at the top of Vivo City, live. There was a grand opening of Vivo City and some performances going on there. The screen attracted so many people so closely that my family actually stood there for like half an hour, staring at the screen. Finally, we walked to the bustop. Moments later, we heard some loud sound and realised that there were fireworks. We couldn't really see the fireworks from the bustop because of some bridge
blocking the view but we could see it from the reflections of the glasses of another building. By the time we boarded the bus, the fireworks were still going on. We reached home at about 9.30pm and here are the pictures. =D

Now I shall talk about my relation with Hady. Hehehe. His grandmother [maternal] is my mum's cousin. That means, his grandmum's mum is my grandfather's sister. That makes his grandmum my mum's cousin. That makes his mum my second cousin. And that makes him my nephew!! Hahahaha! Yes, its' true but it's quite ironic. Other celebrities that are also related to me are Taufik Batisah and Hazrul Nizam. All of them are on my [maternal] grandfather's side. And of coz, Taufik and Hady knows each other and they are aware that they are related since their mums know each other. =)

HADY! He's signing on the table cloth! Lols.

He's writing wishes and signing on the poster! =)

Hady and Jonathan(a.k.a. Roti Jon!) Lol.

He gave a smile for my mum's camera phone! =)

And finally, we got to take picture with him on our first meeting with him! Me, Yayah & HADY!! =D

Saturday, 2 Dec
It's Mat's birthday yet he had to go to school to perform for the 50th Anniversary dinner. SM Goh Chok Tong was there also. Obviously, it was very grand but not worth it to pay 120 bucks just to attend the whole thing. Imagine paying 120 bucks to sit in the not air-conditioned assembly plaza just to eat and watch the performance! WTH! The school is already filthy rich but they still keep asking us for money till our Edusave money are all used up and we have to fork out our own money!Hais.. I must say that they're quite stingy afterall. =( Luckily I'm not involved in the 50th Anniversary Concert.

Happy 15th Birthday Muhd! =)

In the morning, I had nothing much to do. In the afternoon, my mum asked me to go Bedok Int to take the pics from the shop. I asked Yayah to accompany me but Aki also tag along. So the 3 of us went there together. On the way, we entered NTUC for fun. We walked around at the second level. Then we walked into the toys and gifts section, where all the softoys are. Then I spotted the exact same polar bear that I have! It was exactly the same and there were so many! Then I realised how dirty mine was because the polar bears there are super white. If only I had brought my phone along so that I can take pictures of them lined up. Hehe.
Okay. This one is not really an outing but it's quite fun, anyway. Although it was another short visit to the interchange, it was fun. Lols. =P

Sunday, 3 Dec
We were supposed to go for a wedding celebration thingy at woodlands. As my family is very budget, we took a bus from Bedok to Woodlands and then took a cab to the condominium. One thing I was looking forward to: meeting Taufik. A few weeks ago, the mak cik who sent the invitation card said that Taufik was going to come, so we were expecting him. When my family reached the place, we ate and found out that Taufik haven't arrived yet. And since some people wanted to see the brides and grooms so much, we stayed there with the rest of cousins and relatives for almost 3 hours. Finally, we managed to see both pairs of couple. One of them is the brother and his wife, the other is the younger sister and her husband. The funny thing is that, the brother's wife was wearing this funny shoe which is not meant for a bride at all. It was a black boot, something like the type that soldiers wear. Another funny thing is that the other pair of couple, were big-sized. Lols. I sound mean.. Hehe. But it's true lah. One pair was okayy and the other pair was both big! Hahaha! Okayy.. In the end, we left there at about 4pm. And we didn't get to see Taufik. Either he didn't come, or we just didn't see him. But instead of Taufik, we saw Hady's parents as well as his grandmother. Yups. The ones who are related to us. Although his grandmother was on a wheelchair, she seems like a very happy and cheerful person. She looks like the lovable type of elderly, not like those who looks grumpy and very sensitive towards unpleasant behaviours of people. Lols. And so, our mothers who are cousins of Hady's grandmother, salam her and she looks even more happier. Hahaha! I think I'm crapping again. Ok wadeva lah.

That's the end of the 5-day outing. So fun! Now I shall end this post with something that will cheer me up. Next Tuesday will be the 12th Dec and saRaLi would be 1 year and 2 months old! =D

2006-11-27T13:18:00.000+08:00

There's actually nothing much to blog or update about except for the tiring red cross camp on tuesday to thursday, and yesterday's family gathering at buangkok.

Nothing much to blog about the redcross camp last week. I only have this to say.

Red Cross camps never fail to give me eyebags. And
since we are the NCOs as well as the camp-planners this time, it makes sense why
this camp gives me the worst eyebags of my life.

That's just a bitter fact that I hate about camps. Other than that, I usually like camps. =)

Some things that happened during the camp:

Footdrill bronze accred was utterly disappointing.
Footdrill silver accred was screwed up!
Conflict between us and the Stall 7 aunty Ipah, due to miscommunication.
The serious 1hr plus debrief (or girl talk) between the NCOs.
Ordering of McDonalds in the wee hours.
Girl guides combined training was a little sucky.
My 'lost' charger turns out that I actually forgot to put it in my bag. Lol!
Paulina Lee becomes Pau Twohill!

On the last day of the camp, abang fetch my from school and sent me home straightaway. As soon as I reach home, I was too tired to watch TV and so I fell asleep till the next morning. That's all to blog about the camp.

On Friday, I followed my mum to the mosque. Nothing else happened.

On Saturday, I was supposed to go for this archery training with my OA GOLDEN BUMBLE BEES at RedCross campsite. Then something happened, which I shan't say. =P After the small gathering, the 5 of us went to eat KFC at bedok. And hell yeah, we made a fool of ourselves with all the weird and funny laughters produced by the SCGS girls and all the crap that we made. Lols! It was so fun! We ended up staying there for about an hour then after that, we went off to somewhere. Then, we were left with 3 girls. After that, I met abang. Accompanied him to eat, then went home. Hehe.

Since I reached home quite late, my mum changed her mind about staying overnight at Buangkok. So we had to go there on Sunday morning. We had another gathering, which was supposed to be a grave-visiting day. I'm not sure how many graves we visited but I'm sure it was more than 6. Of course, the first one was my beloved Nyai's grave. We're all still very sad over her departure. It's been 6 months plus but we still miss her.

After that, we stayed over at Buangkok for a couple of hours. Discovered that my aunt Wak Su bought this book of henna designs and a few hanna tubes. Moments later, my aunts Wak Na and Wak Su requested me to draw henna for them. Hahaha! It's expected. Business was quite good lah. After one customer, another came. In total, I drew henna for 6 girls, excluding myself which makes up 7! I also used the tube which was meant for the fingernails only. Now my nails are extremely red, like Pontianak! Hahaha. Okayy.. Finally, we went home at 8 plus. Luckily Yayah followed us back home to Bedok. Or else, the house would be extremely quiet and boring. Hehehe...

That's the end of yesterday and the previous days. For today, it's a day of slacking for me coz I seriously have nothing to do at all. I wish I can go out and work and get about $900+ like Lim Pon and Verity. But after thinking of RedCross and footdrill comp, I decided not to work. Hehes. I'm so nice right... I'm sacrificing for TKRCY. So if we win in FDC, must thank me hor!! Hahahaha!

Hari Raya Outing

2006-11-18T23:07:00.000+08:00

I finally have the mood and time to blog about the Hari Raya Outing with my friends. Hehes. But since I'm getting sleepy, I shall just blog briefly about it.

Basically, we managed to cover only 11 houses, while 17 people came for the outing. We met at Hougang MRT station at 11am, supposedly. But me and abang arrived late at about 11.20am, thinking that we came the latest. However, there were some more people who came even later. The latest person was Ahmad and he came at about 11.50am. Haha. He kept so many people waiting. Ok. Here's a list of the people who came for the outing.
Me, abang, Fatimah, Rika, Kirin, Rahimah, Syafiqah, Azza, Rin, Taufiq, Miswan, Hanafi, Ahmad, Muhammad, Munir, Mjd[mujahid], BangKhai[khairul].

Went off to Syarina's house first, which was at Hougang. Ate Mee!!! Next was Syafiqah's house[serangoon]. Then it was Kirin's house[hougang], where it started raining. We got off the bus, and then we had to walk in the rain to reach her house. That was when we first got wet. It was quite bad, but not very bad. Haha. It was pouring more heavily when we were in her house. By the time we left there, we were already dry but it was still raining so we borrowed a few big umbrellas from Kirin's house to go to Rahimah's house. At first, they wanted to take a cab but since there were too many people, we decided to just take a bus and had to squeeze up to 4-5 people for each umbrella. By then, all of us were very wet until Rika complained that her underwear was also wet! Haha. Then it was a long bus ride to Rahimah's house[aljunied]. It was drizzling by then so it wasn't much of a problem.
After that we went to Taufiq's house, which was a mansionate[is tat how you spell it?] at Eunos, the one nearest to Darul Aman Mosque. Next was Ahmad's house[Eunos], which was quite near also. We scared Azza with Ahmad's cat. Haha. It couldnt just sit still so it was running around the whole house. Azza was like so terrified by it. In the end, she broke down. Lols. Azza's fear of cats is just so weird. Then, we went to abang's house[Marine Parade]. Bus no. 13 was very slow so we had to take 155 and walk the long way to abang's house. No one at home. So I helped him with the drinks. And I get to explore his whole house. Lols. His house is just so nice till someone asked if any one of his family members was a designer or something. Haha. It's all thanks to his 2nd Sister[kak ila] who is so good at decorating the house.
After that, they went to my house[Bedok]. For some reason, abang was so nervous and scared, I don't really know why also. Okay. I met Aki at the lift coz he just came back from Madrasah. By then, it was already around 8 plus at night. And also, my house was the only house that all my family members were around. And of course, my house was the smallest house. Hehs. My mum cooked Mee Hoon Goreng and asked them to finish everything. And the guys obediently finish all the food. And then my mum was so happy. Coz food is not wasted. Hahaha! K. Then we took 31 to Azza's house[Tampines]. Her mum is such a good cook. Then was Muhammd's house[Pasir Ris], where we met Mr. Roslee. We reluctantly ate lontong. It was already 10 plus. Some people were tired so they went home while the rest, including me, went to the very last house, Fatimah's house[Pasir Ris]. Her mum is just so entertaining. Hahaha! Finally, it was already 11.30pm. By the time we left there, it was going to be 12 midnight. Abang sent me home and I reached home at 12.30am. Luckily there was still some buses. And he also managed to catch the last bus home. There goes 11 and 12 November. =)

2006-11-17T19:30:00.000+08:00

wheeehheeeee!!!! New skin! Yay-ness! Isn't this skin so much better and nicer?? Haha. Now I love this skin. It's so much nicer lahh... But hopefully I won't keep changing it again.. Lols.

I'm quite lazy to blog, actually. I'm supposed to be blogging about the Hari Raya outing last saturday. But it's already so basi. I'm even more lazier to blog about it. Haha. Ok lah.. See first if I got the mood about it, then I'll blog next time and upload the pics.

Anyway, tomorrow saRaLi is gonna be 2 very guai kids and do chemistry homework at the library. See you tomorrow, abang.

3dee barbecue!!

2006-11-13T17:40:00.000+08:00

As the title says, 3D`06 had a gathering at ECP for a barbecue. It was supposed to start at 5pm but due to the heavy rain, it started slightly later, which was at about 6pm. Actually, I wasn't sure if I should go or not coz I didn't even know if the food was halal or not. If it's not halal, then there's no point in going.

So I met abang first at 3pm and then we went to parkway. He had to do the G-wrap thingy on his hp and I bought my 3rd eyeliner for the week coz I lost it twice that week. WTH! I'm so careless, I know. Wasted $8 becoz of that. A pity that abang did his hp with only a transparent one. What a waste!! He should have wrapped with some design on it lahh!! And it cost 56 bloody bucks! And he just put a transparent one! Wahlauu!!! So wasted. Hmmph!

After that, we went to eat at the hawker center. No, we're not budget. It's just that we like this mama stall food at the hawker center. I ate Nasi Briyani and wanted abang to just share with me coz I've eaten at home. But then he went to buy $5 rojak. Urghh!! I'm quite pissed off then but I'm not so pathetic to quarrel over food. Lols. My objective of sharing the food was so that I didn't have to pay the whole $3 coz I wanted to save up quickly and that I've already eaten at home. Anyway, I managed to finish up the Nasi Briyani and since I was pitied, abang paid $1 for it and I only had to pay $2. Haha! I'm so budget and pampered by him.

After that, we went back to parkway to collect abang's wrapped hp. That's when it started to pour heavily. So we decided to stay there longer and walk around till the rain stops. Then I sms-ed Serena and found out that she's staying at ECP McDonalds with Atiqah while waiting for the rain to stop. We decided to join them but on the way, we met Chang Sheng. Since we were already very near bbq pit 12, which was our class bbq pit, we called Serena again to ask them to go there instead. A few minutes later, Atiqah called to say that they went the wrong direction. Haha!

So we finally reached the bbq pit 12. But we saw bbq pit 16 first, which was where 3B had their bbq at the same time! Lol. At first, 3D had more people than 3B. But towards the night, 3B had more people. Hmmph! Abang was the only one not from 3D but he didn't mind coz 3D people are just so friendly. Haha! Many people were already there so we joined them. By then, it was already 6pm and the guys were trying to start the fire.

The whole thing lasted till 11 plus. Our form teacher, Ms Goh came at about 8.15pm. I left at about 8.30pm coz ayah had to fetch me from parkway at 8.45pm. I found out that they bought a cake for Ms Goh as she is resigning and we are her last form class. I'm not sure though, whether she resigned because of our class. Coz our class is like so uncontrollable. There are 27 guys and only 15 girls. What do you expect? Haha. Seriously, many teachers are super pissed with our class and have given up. They include Mrs Hwang(A Maths and E Maths), Mdm Mariam(Hist), Ms Goh(Physics) and Mrs Lena Poh(Geog). These teachers have complained to Mr Tan Kee Hoe(the sec 3 level head) because of our class. Lols. Haha.

Abang was one of the few people who stayed on till the whole barbecue ended. And just before I left, we managed to take a class photo. But some people are not around, though.

the pretty gurls of 3dee!!

mine and atiqah's (from the left).

i love the view..

the barbecue started! and jierong was in charge of writing names on the cups.. lols. gd idea, anyway..

me and abang!!

happy 3dee!!! with some people hidden... =P

abang's favourite teacher.. ms goh. the physics freaks.. haha.

me and chang sheng. he gave me chance to be taller this time. although im not tall at all.. haha.

Happy Anniversary!!

2006-11-12T22:54:00.000+08:00

Yes, its the 12th of the month again!

saRaLi can never forget the 12th of every month.

Happy Anniversary to saRaLi once again.

It's been 1 year and 1 month since you both got together. And they're still standing strong together as one. Hahaha!

Sadly, they can't meet each other again this time coz one has to go jalan raye with family. But nonetheless, both of them still enjoy being in the same relationship like they always have. saRaLi shall continue to stay together as one heart. Hehs.

Anyway, for this month's 12th, they only managed to spend about a good half an hour together from 12am to about 12.30am of the morning of 12 Nov coz they went out to jalan raye from the morning of 11 Nov and one had to send the other home. And they had to part at about 12.30am. There goes their time together on the 12th.

Happy 13-month Anniversary to SARALI!! =) =D :) :D =X :P

Anyway, I still have 2 more events to blog about, which I will do some other day. =)

Zzzzzz.....

2006-11-10T11:39:00.000+08:00

Finally the truncated lessons are over. No more lessons for the rest of year. But more coming up next year. I dont think im prepared for next year. Coz I know that the teachers will be like rushing through to teach us the rest of the syllabus for O levels. And then we'll also have trouble trying to catch up as well as revise back what we have not mastered this year. Urghh...

This reminds me of what Justyn Kang said to me and abang
yesterday. He said that "truncated" means "shortened". And then we were
like..WTF! haha! so much for the "truncated" lessons.
More like truncated holidays, like Justyn said. I so agree with him.
lols.

Yesterday after fdc training, abang invited me in Clarissa's(his senior) birthday celebration. At first I didnt wanna join coz I'm so extra while the rest are all athletes. In the end, I agreed to join in the crappy moments.

After fdc, me and abang went to parkway where we met Justyn. Then the 3 of us walked around to look for cupcakes and candle for Clarissa. Coz it was so budget and last minute, we bought a Double Chocolate Chip Crown Muffin from Famous Amous. I was so damn tempted to eat lah. But I managed to control myself. haha. Then we walked around to look for candles. Finally, we saw some candles at Cold Storage. There was one box of 5 candles that costs only $1. But being with the crappy and retarded freaks like abang and Justyn, they bought this super big candle that was meant to be used for those kind of candle-lit dinner. haha. The candle was like about 20+ cm long and costs $2 plus. lols.

Then we went back to school to wait for Clarissa and the other girls to get ready, after their O level papers. Justyn poked a hole in the muffin with his thumb to stuff the candle inside. haha! Meanwhile, Virnice had bought a bottle of whipped cream to put on Clarissa! lols. then we all secretly put the whipped cream on some paper plates so that we can just smack the plate on her face. haha! Back in the canteen, Ashley was covering Clarissa's face so that she wouldnt see anything. Then we surprised her with the muffin first. She was so happy, making her wish. But just before she managed to blow the candle, Virnice started smacking her face with the whipped cream and the rest all followed. After that was total chaos. Of coz, they all started chasing each other for revenge. Everybody else in the canteen was staring. lols.

When everything was calm, we started to wipe off the cream on the canteen floor and table. I think Clarissa and abang got the most whipped cream among the us. Haha! I really pity them coz the whipped cream stinks! lols. I went home with abang. When we were in the bus, I noticed that his shirt and his hair totally stinks of whipped cream. lol. He was so unhappy that he changed his shirt in the bus! haha. then it was slightly better but his hair and face still stinks coz Clarissa wiped the cream all over. Haha. I wonder how bad Clarissa's one was. She must have stink worse. Lols. Anyway, it was so fun. Happy 16th Birthday, Clarissa.

OA GOLDEN BUMBLE BEES!!

2006-11-05T14:11:00.000+08:00

yea, im one of them. im one of those OA GOLDEN BUMBLE BEES!!! and i just love all of them! i just cant get enough of yesterday. we surely enjoyed ourselves very much yesterday, although we would become servants and clean the campsite drain. but it was fun, seriously. although it stinks, we still had a lot of fun. coz the OA GOLDEN BUMBLE BEES rock!! hahaha!

okay. i know you dont have a clue about what im talking about. unless u're one of the OA GOLDEN BUMBLE BEES! hahaha. okay. so what exactly are OA GOLDEN BUMBLE BEES? firstly, we made up of 11 people that came for yesterday's gathering. actually, there was supposed to be 13 of us but 2 girls were absent. unfortunately, they couldnt get their t-shirts first. we all first met at an Outdoor Activities (GOLD) Modular Workshop at the red cross campsite in june. it was a 3 day 2 nights camp.

at the end of the camp, all of us passed the OA gold accred except for the broadrick guy who went home coz he was sick. we were just so damn super united then. but sadly, the camp had to end.

then, 5 months later, all of us received an e-mail from vincent sir (one of our OA instructor), who invited us for a gathering at campsite to accred the cadets who are taking bronze, followed by a barbecue at ECP! haha. so, we all finally get to re-unite again at the redcross campsite yesterday. once we reached there, we were given this yellow t-shirt which we had paid for, and were asked to change into it immediately. and so, all of us were wearing yellow t-shirts with black trackpants, making us look like BUMBLE BEES!!

so thats how we get the title of OA GOLDEN BUMBLE BEES!! coz we all passed our OA gold, and we look like bumble bees yesterday! YAY-NESS!! i love all of them!

i swear we were all damn united and cute and fun and lame and crappy that all the sirs and maams love us too! hahahahaha!

okay. here's what happened yesterday.

i reached the campsite slightly late. vincent sir gave me the t-shirt and i changed into it immediately. then i joined the rest in helping the bronze cadets.

we taught them how to tie knots, help out in the revision, blah3. then we had to accred them, give them points for their OA skills, mark their theory papers, help them in the outdoor cooking, clean up their mess like servants, clear the stinky drains, played games with them, entertain them by sharing our experience with them about the OA (GOLD) camp to encourage them to go for the silver camp.

the sirs and maams announced who passed and who failed the test. after that, they went home.

finally, we had our own time to enjoy for the rest of the day.

by then, it was already 4.30pm.

we got to rest in the instructors room for awhile and changed our bottoms before going to ECP.

i was the only one among the 11 bumble bees that brought my own slippers and camera. haha!

we went to ECP by alfian sir's car.

while waiting for the rest to arrive, the girls went down first and played near the water, climbed up the breakwater, splash water at each other, and just had fun.

when the guys arrived, we had more fun trying to push shyan ann into the water but only managed to get his shoes wet. haha.

that's when i started taking more pictures.

deborah always had trouble trying to climb up and down the breakwaters coz she had short legs.

hanisah always made fun of yu ting and deborah for their reaction when they saw a dead baby crab. "its dead! eeeeeeee!!!!!" lol.

when it was totally dark, all the 11 bumble bees were on the breakwater together. but only managed to take a few photos.

when the tide was getting high, we went down the breakwater coz we didnt want to get stranded on the breakwater when the water level has risen above the sand connected to the breakwater. again, deborah was the last one to get down from the breakwater coz she was stuck, as usual.

then, we sat at the barbecue pit, while waiting for the bbq to start.

as we were all bored to death, we started playing whacko!

it was super fun, trying to confuse the whacker by saying someone's name and pointing somewhere else. haha.

finally, the bbq started. we barbecued chicken wings, crabsticks, fishballs, hotdogs, satays. it was so fun! hehes.

then, it was already 9 plus. just before we all left, we got our OA GOLD badges first, then took a group photo! =D

unfortunately, the day ended so soon. im gonna miss the OA GOLDEN BUMBLE BEES again. the bees go buzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!!!!!!

haha. here are the photos taken yesterday.

taken at the instructors room. me, mardiyah, hanisah. =)

me and hanisah. =)

3 of the female bumble bees at the beach!

the picture says it all. bumble bees rocks!

the names of the 5 female bumble bees. (from top) yu ting, deborah(debo), sarah, mardiyah(mard), hanisah(nisah). =)

the smily face the the female bumble bees made. =P

the water is so nice!!

the 6 emotional male bumble bees.

a clearer view. taken from the top of the breakwater.

the male bumble bees!!

the romantic couple. farhan and wei yang!! hahah!

shyan ann in the background and bobby showing off his nostrils. =P

4 of the female bumble bees! me, hanisah, deborah, yu ting. =)

the male bumble bees in one straight row on the breakwater!

all the male bumble bees are lying in a row on the breakwater.

me and nisah. candid!

the 2 sirs are caught red handed! haha.

nice pose of 3 of the male bumble bees!

a group photo of the bumble bees and the instructors!

and finally, our beloved OA GOLDEN BUMBLE BEES!!!!! <3

(from top right)mathew, shyan ann, bobby, wei yang

(from middle right) si han, farhan, yu ting, deborah

(from bottom right) me, hanisah, mardiyah.

never regretted meeting these nice people.. =)

the school eats up my holiday!

2006-10-31T23:22:00.000+08:00

my holidays are like half gone with school stuffs like the stoopid 2 weeks of truncated lessons to 'prepare us for O levels'. WTF!! also taken up by redcross thanks to the oncoming National Footdrill Competition 2007 on 3rd Feb. our TKRCY's poor footdrill head has to get down and do more work to prepare for the competition. hmmph.. okayy. i shall not complain because it is TKRCY, mind you. its not that im trying to say bad stuffs so that i dont get into trouble. i can do that if i want to but i just choose to be more guai and 'faithful' to TKRCY. ;)

so far, the 2 days of lessons sucks to the max! hais. poor us have to bear with all these crap for 2 weeks. urrggghhhhh..... what a groan mann. yes, the older we get, the nearer we get to hell. thats why the sec 1 classrooms are up high near the heaven at 4th floor while the sec 4 classrooms are like right down there, near hell, on the ground floor. at least we still have the HODs and principal and v. principal with us on the same level. coz they're around to torture us further while we're on our way to hell.

for some reason, life's hard for me these few days. its because of a few possible reasons, which i wont reveal. coz it might probably make me feel worse?? yeah. somehow, in some ways, im trying to hide the dilemma and hardship im going through. i wish i can just forget everything and just concentrate on balancing the right things in my life so that i can be the happiest person on earth. but i dont think i can coz it might get worse. hais.

i wonder what the hell is happening to my life. for a second, i felt like killing myself and another second, i was over the moon like nobody's business. and then a moment later, im like down there again. what the hell is wrong with me. hais.

holidays screwed!

More Raya Outings!

2006-10-31T22:55:00.000+08:00

after reading shahidah's blog, i think i might as well agree with her.. this year, hari raya is not that special like the previous years. for some reason, there's just not much celebration and happy happy atmosphere thingy among people. im not exactly sure why its like this. issit because of NYAI's absense?? but that's appicable to our family only. im not sure about others. well, nvm. it doesnt matter much, only that the atmosphere is not there and we dont really have the mood to go visiting with friends in super big groups. =(

no matter how bad hari raya is this year, my family still enjoy going out and taking photos.

yup, we went visiting last friday and saturday. 6 houses on each day. its not that much but it doesnt really matter. i enjoyed pampering myself so much by dressing myself up so much to the max! haha. just look at the big henna on my left hand and my right foot. i drew all of them by myself! woohoooo!! haha. hope i dont get pimples becoz of the heavy make-up. =P

Friday
not many photos here. except for the ones taken in the car when yayah fell asleep on me. =P

Saturday
some pictures taken with all our dearest.. =))

the posers. hehehe...
family photo. =)

taken at woodlands, my aunt's house.
its not easy being a mum of 4 kids. =P
the cutie pies... =D
another family photo. =)
guilty pleasure. yummy... =)
that's my second cousin, illyunisha a.k.a. nisha. so cuuuteeeee........ =))
wish she was mine.. =P

Sunday
these photos are taken when my relatives visit my house.

yay! that's all the photos for now.. there might be more coming up when more people come to my house.. =))

my dear frens, when do we go out hari raya?!?! faster plan! people wanna collect $$$!! hahaha. j.k. =P

stupid blogger

2006-10-29T21:02:00.000+08:00

stupid lah.... there aer some errors in this system thingy and i cant republish my blog!!! urghhh.. so angry mann... cant update properly. and even had to change skin to make sure its ok. but its still not ok... darnn.. wth wth wth wth!!! hais... blogger, please get well soon. or else im getting sick of you!! hmmph!! hate this so much!

Camat Ari Raye!!

2006-10-25T20:34:00.000+08:00

yay-ness! selamat hari raya to all muslims celebrating hari raya! am i late in wishing it?? i dont think so coz hari raya lasts for the whole month of syawal, that is 30 days. woohooo!!

as usual, my family and i did what we always do on hari raya, but with a difference this year and the following years. nyai is no longer around. it was very sad. mum already started crying once we got into the taxi. i was trying to control my tears and didnt want to look so sad. once we reach buangkok, we could really feel the loss. cant get to see nyai anymore. cant kiss her hand and ask for forgiveness from her. its just all totally so different. before this, every single year we would always go to her house first and she would always be the first person we look for. but this time, her absence has taken a toll on all of us. when i reached there, i was still trying to control my tears by distracting myself with magazines. or else all my make-up would be wasted. =P

hais.. lets not talk about this lah... now i shall let the pictures do the talking... =)

some cam-whoring session. i was the first one to get ready so i used to camera to kill time while waiting for some people to get ready!!!

that aki!! wondering how to pakai kain samping perfectly.. hehehe...

finally, everyone's ready. time for more picturess!! =D

wah lauuu ehh... he's taller than me. how can this be?!?!?! tak puas hati sehh!! hmmph!!

reached buangkok already!! more picturess!! =D

nek busu is yayah's favourite nenek! hehehe... she's sort of our next closest grandparent after nyai. btw, she's actually our grand-aunt. =)

okayy! finally reached home again at 8.30 like that.. so tired sehh.. but no matter how tired we are, still got time to force some sleepy smiles for the camera.. hehehe..

some more sleepy moments..... zzzzzzzzzzzzz............................

Sorry...

2006-10-22T19:19:00.000+08:00

im very sorry to say all these negative things in this post. i know it will hurt people and i will probably disappoint some as well. but im just letting know how i really feel.

just when my life is starting to get better, some people just have to turn it upside down again. my heart is slowly healing and it takes a lot for me to be how i really wanna be like. that is to be happy and content with my life.

and im especially referring to that 'HE' in my life who's been bothering me and getting on my nerves. he's being too unreasonable. although i know i should be respecting him to the max, i somehow blame him for not earning the respect that he should get. yes, i say that it is his fault that i have this feeling, wishing that people like him is not in my life at all. although im still trying hard to give him as much respect as possible, it might not be sincere.

i know im a big crybaby so i shall confess this. just about an hour ago, he got on my nerves again, being so unreasonable and making me so angry till i cried. i just felt like shouting at him and just tell him how i feel about him being so unreasonable.

im sorry if im getting more and more rebelious. i cant help it. i cant take this stress anymore. if he goes too far, i might just explode. then, good luck to whatever's gonna happen next. i shall say this to him, "If you really think that I'm becoming more and more rebelious towards you, then you shall have to ask yourself why I've become so. You ought to reflect back yourself coz you're the cause,"

trust me, im not saying all this to make myself feel better. in fact, im terribly upset and disappointed in him and whatever that is happening now. its not as if im trying to take revenge or something. im also sad that this is the kind of life i have to live. now how the hell am i gonna be happy again??

parents, im sorry to say this. but it seems to me that many of you dont really know and understand your kids well. thats why there are many teens out there who are similar to those in 'Hanyut' and 'Anak Metropolitan'. i know i dont have the right to say this about parents. but its how i feel about the causes of teens with their ruined lives.

i just wish that parents really know and understand their kids well enough, be very reasonable and not give false accusations. they might think that they are educating and trying to discipline their kids but in fact, they're hurting them even more. it lowers the kids' self-esteem and thats why the kids always feels like running away from home. they cant take the pressure anymore. this is especially vulnerable to emotional teens like me. thats why im a crybaby okayy. i dont deny it at all.

i bet now u should know why teens like us always spend more time with frens that with family. frens who are the same age as us understands each other better. unlike some parents who are difficult to get along with simply because they are not understanding and they are just too unreasonable. now u should know why teens keep alot of secrets from their parents and why they are just too secretive, not telling about their bf/gf and stuffs. sometimes its not that teens dont want to reveal more about themselves. their own parents are stopping them from doing so coz they're just too unreasonable.

simple answer right?? so now what? should unreasonable parents be blamed?? or is it still us again?? hais... we're the victims anyway.... =(

*terribly miserable*

Fly Me To The Moon!!

2006-10-22T14:24:00.000+08:00

Fly me to the moon
And let me play among the stars
Let me see what spring is like
On Jupiter and Mars

In other words hold my hand
In other words darling kiss me

Fill my life with song
And let me sing forevermore
You are all I hope for
All I worship and adore

In other words please be true
In other words I love you

im super addicted to this song now... all thanks to the goldheart advertisement. yayy! love this song so much! crazy over it! =DD

So funn!!!

2006-10-21T18:15:00.000+08:00

finally get to update. again, i didnt realise the i havent touched the comp for 1 week. time seems to fly so fast these days. hari raya is in 3 days! school will end in 5 days! after that, its 2 weeks of truncated lessons. they're starting to teach us sec 4 topics. bluek!!

yesterday was so fun!! thanks to everyone around me who made me so happy and cheerful yesterday! wheeeeeeee........... went to school with a heavy bag thanks to redcross training later in the evening. the whole day till 12.40 was basically filled with free periods! so fun! during the 3rd period which was malay, i drew inai for cikgu suriyani in the comp lab! hahaha. cikgu was supposed to bring her own inai but she was so busy that she didnt had the time to buy. luckily, i brought mine. and so i drew for her. on both hands some more! hahaha. ish ish ish... cikgu suriyani is also another inai lover. on tuesday, i went to school with my left hand filled with inai. cikgu saw and then she wanted me to draw for her. so i agreed. haha. some guys went over to watch. and u know what cikgu said?? "Pompuan ni kan leceh. Asik nak lawa ajer.. Takkan Sarah ajer yang nak lawa(pakai inai). Saye pun nak lawa jugak macam Sarah.." hahahahah! cikgu ni klakar lah.. so sporting. yay! cikgu must teach us malay again next year tauu!! we all love u!

after malay was geog. lena poh was saying sth about watching movie but many people were not listening. so i did my own stuffs also. istilah was absent for 2 days straight so i was alone. = then during recess, i talked to atiqah. since we were like so super bored, we started taking out poster colours and brushes. and then u know what we did?? we painted our own hands and did handprints on the class noticeboard. haha. there was only blue and black so we used blue first since our noticeboard was black. we had fun scaring people with our hands and writing stuffs with our fingers. in the end, atiqah painted jierong and asheem's faces with her dirty hands. haha. and then the two of us also painted amalina's face and arms. hahaha! i feel so evil. but it was super fun!!

after that was physics. washed hands and discovered that my uniform was dirty with the paint! arghhh! but it didnt matter much anyway. hehes. for 3 periods straight after that, a large group of about 15 people played murderer! yayy! it was super fun lah. we played the squeezing hands version. i sat between atiqah and chang sheng. and then i finally did what i wanted to do in a long time. that is to make chang sheng fall down. haha! he loves to rock his chair so much. and it was so bloody tempting to make him fall down. finally, i had the chance to do it since he was just beside me and i made him fall backwards!! haha. so funny!! chang sheng loves to act cute lahh... hahas. after he fell down, he started rocking his chair again. then i watched him. then he looked at me and said, "I'm tempting you..." hahaha. i think it sounds so wrong. but u should know what he means lah.. hehe. blearghh..

redcross training started at 2.30pm. taught the sec 1s footdrill. wahhhh.... saket hati sehh.. pump them like 20? and tortured them. i sound evil but i was just punishing them. =P the muslims got to go home earlier cos we needed to break-fast. after training, saRaLi went to break-fast together. yayy. ate at bedok kfc. it was so crowded. luckily we managed to get the food ready on time.
finally, after like 2-3 days, abang was smiling and laughing again, cheerful like he's always been. yay! the bad part, is that he keeps disturbing me and making me so paiseh lah.. wth. so annoying yet so adorable. so irritating yet so lovable. so childish yet so cute. poor me had to withstand with all those tortures. for a moment, i felt like beating him up. sometimes he makes me hate him so much. but in a good way. coz i NEVER mean it when i say i hate him. its always the opposite lah... =D hehes. instead of beating him up, i pinched him. haha. i just love his reaction every time i pinched him. its just so cute mann... everytime i pinch him, he would automatically 'bounce' up. haha. so cute, especially when he was eating. =P now i love to pinch him. but not so bad until blue black lah.. haha. i enjoyed his company so much yesterday. but, sometimes we go too far till we almost got into trouble. heyy. its not as if we did anything bad okay.. abang sent me home.....till someone scary saw us. *gasp* it was a little scary for a moment. i almost got into trouble but i sort of escaped. haha! then, the day ended but i forgot to return abang's headset and whipped potato!! hahas.

I wanna stay as a kid!!!

2006-10-15T16:47:00.000+08:00

yay-ness. finally madrasah oral exam is over! no more memorising ayats, no more rushing through projects. they're all over for now, finally. the 'burdens' are off, but not for long. in 3 weeks' time, there will be another written exam. then after that, im finally freeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!! hurrayy!!!!! hehes. yea, i sound a little too ecstatic. but who wouldnt??? im so tired of sec 3 lyfe!! sec 3 lyfe nowadays is just so tiring.. have to do so many things at once. there's just not enough time for everything. some things have to be compromised and some sacrifices have to be made. its not so easy, now. but finally, its all gonna be over soon. but still, the worst have yet to come. next year is the most major year of all.. O LEVELS!!! NNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i so dont wanna grow old. if only i can stay at a certain age, somehow. can i not go through O's? can i not be sec 4?? can i just stay as a kid?? haiss... cant help it. this is lyfe, anyway. just have to go through ever stage of it. unless i die early. OOHHH!!! so does that mean i have to commit suicide?? is that the only solution?! then if it really is, i might as well die now right??? wakakakakkakakaka!!!

no way lah!! suicide is the most stupidest, foolish-est thing that anyone could ever do. i'll never do that sia... haha.

even though lyfe is full of ups and downs, i would rather experience the best part of lyfe, as well as the worst part of it, even if it means hurting myself even more. afterall, we learn from experience. so its better to get to experience everything rather than just stay at one point. that's why, i've now learn to love life. =) *why do i sound like a professional??* hahaha! anyway, this reminds me of a sentence. "I love life because you are the reason." this is taken from one line of the poem that abang wrote for me on 12 oct 06. =D

12 October 2006

2006-10-13T16:10:00.000+08:00

yesterday was like something i've never experienced before. its was really one of the best days in my whole life! i haven't felt so good and happy and *any other positive words i can think of* in a very long time. if not for the misfortunes, yesterday would be PERFECT! yes, P-E-R-F-E-C-T!!! it really really made my day and i never want yesterday to end at all!

some words to describe yesterday:
full of smiles and laughter, full of honey and sugar *sweetness*, super memorable, very touching, sentimental, emotional, amazing, cool, fun, full of hot stuffs, full of excitement, full of tears*moved to tears*, etc etc etc.

i dont know how else to describe the amazing enjoyment of yesterday. just cant get enough of it! i want more!!!! hahaha! must really thank abang for doing all those things and going through so much to make yesterday a memorable one.

here's what happened yesterday.
he fetched me from home and then we went to bedok int for awhile to look for something that my mum asked to buy.
then we took bus no. 7 to plaza singapura.
took the lift to the 7th level and bought movie tickets. we wanted to watch 'Stay Alive' at first but found out that there was none, dunno how come. so we bought the 2.50 show, 'World Trade Center' since the other movies doesnt sound interesting.
it was like around 1.30 then. so we decided to walk around for awhile. and then we took neoprint! yay. finally our third neoprint together. this time, it was like so much better than the previous one. the previous one was like haywire coz we panicked abit becoz of the japanese stuffs written there and we couldnt understand anything. this time, the pictures are all very nice. some were funny especially the one with the childish pose. yayy! neoprints on 12 oct. haha!
at 2.45, we went up to enter the cinema. just then, we saw huanting and her fren outside. so we waved coz we knew each other although we were not close at all. hehe. and then i realised that they were watching the same movie as us! haha
but our seats were not very near each other. hehe. the cinema was so full lah! so many people. was it the first day of the movie release?? i dont think so. but it was just almost full(except for the first few rows).
the movie was nice lah. quite touching, actually but i didnt cry. i think some people cried.
after that, we went toilet and i took quite long. hehe. then we went straight to esplanade for the exchange of gifts. haha.
and then we remembered that esplanade was officially opened on 12 october also! haha. that means we're celebrating our anniversary together with esplanade. hehes.
we sat on the place at the carpark level, with the TVs around. and then it all started. thats when i totally melted and moved to tears. omg. haha. its expected anyway.
i just love his poems and all. its just so sweet.. awww.... haha! ok. i totally didnt expect so many surprises from him lah.. its mainly his gifts and his words that melts my heart so much. couldnt stop crying for more than half an hour. omg. it was quite embarassing when people walked past and saw u crying like a baby. haha. i wished i was in my room at that point of time. so that i can lock myself inside and sit in one corner, hugging my pillow tightly and crying like mad. hehe.
just when i thought i was very unstable *coz i couldnt stop crying*, i asked him to just stop talking coz if he talk some more, the longer i would take to recover and be stable again. haha.i thought it was quite rude but i just had to do it or else he would just make me go mad. hehe.
finally, after a very long time, i managed to become stable again. and gave him what i've got. it was another surprise but this time, he was the victim. muahahaha! shall not talk much abt that. =)
finally when we're both stable, we went to marina sq to break-fast. and guess where we ate?? haha. pizza hut!! wheeeheeeeeee... we ordered the new pizza, the one with the sunflower shape. it was not that nice for me leyy!! wth lah. im not sure whether it was supposed to be nice or not. but i know it just wasnt my taste. it was cheesy but in a negative way coz the cheese somehow, tasted not as nice as expected. so on the whole, the pizza did not taste as good as it looks. and becoz it wasnt as good as we expected, we took a super long time to finish up all the food.
anyway, after that, he wanted to eat some dessert at chocz. but we were already too full so we didnt go there in the end. in fact, we dont even know whether it is halal or not.
after leaving from there, we went to where the big merlion was vomitting. and then we sat there, right on the same spot where we sat on 23 November 2005. haha. it was another reminiscence for us. =))
finally by the time we got up, it was already like 10pm. that's when the whole day ended in a negative way.
the bus was too late so we tried to get a cab but the cabs were all either on call, or hired. darn. finally, the bus came. he sent me home, and by the time i stepped in, it was around 11.30pm. oppsie! got into another trouble, which was quite minor. hehes. luckily my mum is more patient. =P love her so much.

i was too tired and lazy to bathe so just changed clothes. aki was still awake then, watching WWE on TV3. the rest were already sleeping. so i called abang. luckily, there was still a bus in service then so that he doesnt need to take a cab. he was on the bus when i called him and we talked and talked and talked until he reached his room. talked for about 1 hour and then finally put down the phone at 12++. bedtime! sadly, 12 October was over. gone for good. but it will remain etched in our memories. =)) if only the day never ended.

2006-10-13T15:35:00.000+08:00

full name: Sarah Bte Mohd Sazali
name backwards: ilazaS dhoM etB haraS
were you named after someone: dont think so.
meaning of name: according to an English book from Marine Parade library, it means princess
nickname: sarah, adeq, syg, hot stuff 11
D.O.B: 15 march 1991
place of birth: singapore general hospital
nationality: singaporean
current location: in the living room
star sign: pisces
height: 155 (boohoooo)
shoe size: 7-8 or 38-40
hair colour: black with some brown/red
eye colour: dark brown
who do you look like: dunno
innie or outtie: ???
leftie or rightie: rightie
gay, straight, bi or others: straight
best friends: my abang, the girls
best friend you trust most: abang
favourite pals: those same people
best friend of opposite sex: abang
best buddies: abang, them
boyfriend or girlfriend: how can my abang be my bf?? haha! but its just that way. =P
crush: KL. haha!
parents: Suria Bte Sujak & Mohd Sazali Bin Hamid
worst enemy: dunno
favourite online guy: abang
favourite online girl: all those crazy ones.
craziest friend: can i say that all my frens are crazy?? =P
advice friend: abang
person you cry with: abang
any sisters: yep. yayah!
any pets: nope
any disease: no. just a disorder.
pagers: used to have one.
personal phone line: none
cell phone: none
pool or hot tub: both
a car: none
your personality: dont ask me
driving: wanna learn.
room: its very messy and packed
whats missing: i want my abang to come here rite now.
school: tanjong katong sec
bed colour: no bed. only mattress. its yellow with numbers on it.
relationship with parents: closer to mum
believe in yourself: sort of
believe in love at first sight: yea
good listener: maybe
get along well with parents: better with mum
save email conversations: yupp
pray: yea, but always miss them.
believe in reincarnation: dont think so.
make fun of people: i am a meanie!
like to talk on the phone: yupyupyup. late night phone conversations with abang!!
want to get married: yupyupyup
like to drive: dunno how to
motion sickness: dont think so
eat stem of broccoli: yea
eat chicken with fork: only sometimes
dream in colour: dont know
type with your fingers: duh
home role: u mean what's my role at home?? daughter, sister, lover. =)
sleep with stuff animals: my polar bear!!
next to you: the cupboard
on the walls of your room: the walls are mostly covered with cupboards and shelves, with ayat Quran.
on your mousepad: the mouse lah. duh
dream car: jaguar!
dream date: got it already. but sadly, it was over last night.
dream honeymoon spot: australia??
dream husband or wife: hehehe.... =D
bedtime: range from 9 plus to 12 plus.
under your bed: no bed.
single most important question: dunno
bad time of a day: anytime when im in bad mood
your worst fear: kiamat, death, losing my loved ones.
the weather is: fine. not so hazy already.
time: 3.57pm
date: 13 october 2006
best trick did on someone: dunno
theme song: ???
hardest thing about growing up: the older i grow, the more studies make me stressful
funniest experience: forgot.
scariest experience: dunno
silliest thing you have ever said: dunno
scariest thing while you are with your friends: umm.. dunno??
worst feeling: to feel unloved and losing a loved one.
best feeling in the world: to feel loved and so important.
AND NOW THE SABOTAGING BEGINS!!!
CHOOSE 8 TO DO THE QUIZ
anyone.anyone.anyone.anyone.anyone.anyone.anyone.anyone. do if u want.

Happy Anniversary!

2006-10-11T18:06:00.000+08:00

finally exams are over. yessa! more time for myself. more time to rest. more time for frens. more time to prepare for hari raya. more time to catch up on my sleep. more time for everything, but no more time for studies pls. =))

although today's physics paper was a bit of disaster, i just dont feel bad about it coz exams are finally gone(but not for long) and tomorrow is saRaLi's official one-year Anniversary! yay-ness! seems like my life is getting better now. more smiles, more laughter, more joy, more enjoyment! thanks to the people around me. no matter how annoying and irritating you people are, you still make my day. ironically, some of those super annoying people actually cheer me up by getting on my nerves. haha. anyway, thanks, people. love ya.

and of course, according to this particular another annoying bugger, im gonna enjoy and be more happy tomorrow. i wonder what this sweetie is up to. hopefully, not to any mischief. =)) yupp, its gonna be another outdoor break-fast outing tmr with this sweetie annoying bugger. the nick seems a little contradicting and ambiguous but the person is like that, anyway. hehe.

sadly, im gonna miss our class outing to sentosa tmr, coz i've promised to go out with that sweetie annoying bugger for the important occasion. im not sure, though, whether alot of people are going for the 3D class outing tmr. if 30 plus out of 42 people go, then im so gonna be left out lah.. but i wont regret, though. hehes.

oh yea... i went to bugis just now and entered kinokuniya. and i ended up standing like more than half-an-hour on the same spot in the shop because of a very interesting pink book entitled 'Couple Book'. nope, it wasnt like those kinda books that tell you what couples should do. it's more like a big big diary, walking through life as a couple. there were the dates when u got together with 'him', the things both of u have in common, knowing each other's secrets and personality. there's also the part when you both got married, the date and time, the *ehem*(things) that newly married couples do, the squables, bad habits, blah3. there's also something called eternal love or sth like that, all about ageing together, retirement, grandchildren, and also 'till death do us apart' thingy. its all so complete with all the things that couples do in all stages of their life. and the reader is supposed to fill up things like writing the dates and times, the things in common, their child's name, blah3, and also paste pictures like a photo of how he/she sleeps and which part u think is cute. haha. the book is just so interesting. but if i were to buy it, i would have to keep it for my whole life, which is unlikely.

there was one page in the book about horoscopes compatibility. so i searched for the one with pisces and pisces(DUH!). and then it states, "You both will last forever and ever and ever.............only if you purchase this book." hahahah. so what do you think? should i buy it or not? it costs $28.88 =P

anyway, HAPPY 1-YEAR ANNIVERSARY TO SARALI!! <33

2006-10-07T18:05:00.000+08:00

u noe sth?? i didnt realise that i havent been updating for more than a week. haha. yess.. finally the weekends are here. finally a 2-days break from exams, but nor from studying. darn. how boring..

so far, chem is disaster, history and social studies are disasters, geog is a slight disaster, and english summary, im not sure abt that. e maths paper 1 was such a 'no-sweat' paper. very possible to get full marks. but i shall not be too complacent, nor put high hopes on that. for all i noe, i might just get a dissapointing B3?? yupps. anyway, 3 days of exams to go, 5 papers to sit for, plenty of pages to write on.

the whole of today is so slacky for me. went to geylang with mum and dad and sis just now and bought some new baju.. then used to comp. wanted to do some projek but was too distracted. anyway, i hope i dont drown tmr for not doing madrasah hw and not studying for oral. hehes. then tmr is another day of studying. physics and a maths! bluek.

inspite of all the exam fever, not to mention my ulcer and cough that spoil my mood, me and my abang are just so excited for thursday to come. what else can the special occasion be, if not our 1-year anniversary?? haha. yupyupyup. good timing also. its one day after the exams. =)) of coz, we're going out to somewhere and just spend time together, rewarding ourselves with plenty of stuffs for our relationship and weeks and days of intensive studying, after exams. yay-ness.

boring life??

2006-09-28T21:08:00.000+08:00

yeah, im finding the time to blog more often now even though exams are just next week. i know, for sure, that after using the comp now, i will surely feel guilty for not studying coz im supposed to study intensively now. but why not?? the answer is simple. im too tired and sick of looking at files and papers and books and words and letters and numbers and symbols and even stationeries. in short, im tired of studying. yupyupyup. i just studied for 1 and a half hours STRAIGHT just now in school ALONE while waiting for my abang. and right now, im just so lazy to study some more, after stoning while watching yayah spelling out animal names and colouring animals. in short, she was doing her hw and i had to monitor her. so once i get my hands on the comp now, i know it's hard to get away unless i really have nothing to do with it.

another reason that makes me lazy to study at home is about all the noise pollution in this house and about not having a proper table to do my work on, in my room. its very inconvenient to do in the living room table or the kitchen table coz all my books and files are in my room and then i had to take all of them out and then move them back again when im done. the worse thing is that my room is small and there are just too many things in it. if only i had my own room, bigger than this one.
anyway, i still cant run away from studies. no matter what the conditions, still have to study. study study. sounds quite a boring life. but its just to make sure that i dont regret in future. hehe... =))

Is it true???

2006-09-26T22:11:00.000+08:00

i've heard from aki, some stories about this particular relative of mine. when i say relative, it can be my family members or cousin or aunt/uncle or anyone. it is something negative so i hope it's not true lah. i really pity her after hearing what happened(if it's true lah..). im not sure whether it is the first time that something like this happened in our family. but the way aki describes it, it sounds very familiar.. just like what i witnessed in front of my eyes like more than 10 years ago?? and i still have no idea about what it exactly was all about. someone owes me an explanation about what i witnessed the other time. and im still waiting. for this current case, i just hope that everything is gonna be alright soon. its saddening to hear this negative thing happening that involves our relative, although im so indirectly involved. if it's true, then maybe there's nothing much we can do about it. but if it's true, i just hope that this particular relative of mine takes one step at a time and slowly pick herself up and just move on. i wish her all the best.

this ramadhan month is very very much more different than any other ordinary ramadhan month. this time, i can really feel the loss again, of our late nyai. just when i finally had gotten over it, everything seems to be coming back again. i miss her more this time. coz i can really feel the different atmosphere of the fasting month this time. no more frequent gatherings on weekends and have our dinner together, no more listening to her stories about the past, no more listening to her soft-spoken voice chatting with her daughters, no more looking at those grey eyes, no more seeing her eating her millions of pils and capsules. i just miss her so much. i miss all her love and care for all her children and grandchildren and great-grandchildren. miss seeing her sleep while watching tv, and then refusing to sleep in the room. miss watching her walk around, finding things to do, miss her little laughter, miss listening to her advices and worries for me, miss her little handkerchief, miss everything about her. i just miss her so much. no words can describe how much we all miss her and how much we really feel her absence. hari raya is gonna remind me more of her. there goes my very last grandparent. there's no more elderly to visit, to ask forgiveness from, to give so much respect to, to bake cookies for, to give ketupats to, to take photos with. everything that we've been doing with her all these years, since our parents are born, its all gone now. coz our one and only precious nyai has reached her time to leave this world and leave all of us. right now, in this ramadhan month, she's watching over all of us. and i hope she's alright (although i dont know how she's been doing).
hopefully she's among those good and fillial muslims. may Allah bless her soul.
right now, i can feel her absence so strongly. for the past 3 days of bulan ramadhan, i've been crying for her. yesterday, i cried in class twice, without people recognizing that i actually cried. of coz, i couldnt control my tears as i typed this post about nyai. i just miss her so much. i dont know how im gonna survive not crying on hari raya. i love u, nyai.

1 year coming up... =))

2006-09-24T15:29:00.000+08:00

hi again. im finally blogging. i think i havent used the comp for 1 week? or was it more than that?? not really sure but i know its been a long time since i updated this blog and some other stuffs.

so what have i been up to?? hmmm.. what else.. i think i dont need to answer this question lah. what else could it be if not exams? the 1st paper will be on next monday. and sadly, almost all 9 subjects, all topics throughout the year, will be tested. how can anybody not get stressed just to think about it?? there's just so many content, especially humanities. hais. now u see why i dont update that much. another reason why i dont update is because of some inconsiderate people in the house. i shall not say who lah but i think its obvious. yupps. i've been studying like hell for the past week, i think my brain is gonna burst soon. the thing that makes it worse is the bad noise pollution made by most of the people in this house except for 2, including me. haha. obvious rite?? those 2 small kids and another one with a 'big' voice?? haha. dunno what to say about that lah. but they drive me crazy. very hard to concentrate with them around, especially when all 3 are in the house. thats why i always stay out after school and go home late coz i have to study and i cant study well at home. i hope some people at home understand this and not always accuse me of merayap-ing too much(and make me more stressed). i know i love to merayap but not when exams are around the corner.

yupp, like what kak izah said in the tagboard, aki has been 'sayang'-ing here and there. haha. i cant believe thats HIM!! cant believe he's so mature. or is he just pretending?? dunno lah. but i know for sure that he's definitely NOT mature at home. always so ever disorganised and rude at home. always kena scolded by mum and dad for being disorganised and NOT DISCIPLINED!

hehe. and he's been sayang-ing here and there at his blog. thats like a bit shocking lah. nak announce to the whole world yg u dah ade gf ke ape ni?? show off eh? kat blog pun nak mushy2 eh.. haha. berani nyer.
i dont even dare refer to him as sayang on my blog. the most pun abang jer. abang as in betol2 brudder tau. not like wat women call their hubby, like what my frens thought. he calls me adeq sometimes also. ok wth. why am i talking about this?? haha.

btw, right now, im kinda stressed with sutdies. one good news or one very special occasion to look forward to, is the day after the last paper of EOY exams. which is the 12th October!! of coz, its a very special date. it's saRaLi's one year anniversary!! right after exams! yayy! haha. such a nice timing. pandai eh abang plan. hehe. finally the day to celebrate. the day to relieve stress. the day to let my hair down. to have fun. and just to spend quality time together with my abang. only us. =)) too bad it falls on the fasting month. but that doesnt stop us coz we're gonna buka puase together. hehe.

aki, now i shall answer ur question coz u've been wondering whether me and my abang ever quarelled for the past 1 year?? haha. of coz ade gaduh lah. takkan takde sehh.. kite gaduh sampai terok2 skali tau.. sampai tumbuk2, pukol2, sebat2, cubit2, tendang2, aper2 lagi lah.. sampai darah, masok hospital tu sumer.. but, no matter how much we gaduh, we still survive. and of coz, we WILL survive. saRaLi doesnt die just like that, ya know.. haha.
k. now i shall do the hw that aki gave me. =)

1. single, taken or crushing??
taken and crushing. haha. taken by my abang, crushing on KL. hehe. but abang knows and its not much of a problem coz its not for real.. =P

2. are you happy with your life now?
ok ok lah. havent found real happiness yet until............................ =)

3. when you meet the right person, do you fall in love with him fast??
hmm.. in the first place, i take very very very suuuuppperrrr long to find out myself whether he's the right person or not. haha.

4. have you ever had your heartbroken??
of coz.

5. do you believe there are some circumstances where cheating love is acceptable??
until i find an example, my answer is no.

6. would you take someone back if he cheats on you??
maybe.. im very forgiving type and i dont like to break people's hearts. thats my weakness.

7. have you talk about marriage with another before??
actually, yes. just angan2 that i want to marry a mat saleh with green eyes so that my child will have green eyes as well.. haha. jus kidding lah. mat saleh sucks, actually.

8. do you want children??
yup yup yup. =)

9. how many??
at least 1 boy and 1 girl. if can afford, maybe more. =D

10. would you consider adoption??
try to avoid lah..

11. if someone like you right now, what do you think is the best way to let you know his feeling??
he must think first whether i'll be shocked when i find out. if he thinks i will be shocked, then its better for him not to tell me face-to-face. i might collapse and get heart attack. haha.

12. do you enjoy getting in relationship??
with him, definitely yes!

13. be honest, what is the furthest you & your ex did??
haha. i got no ex! =D and im proud of it.

14. do you believe in love at first sight??
maybe.. but its possible, by coincidence.

15. are you romantic??
my abang says yes. but i dunno lah..

16. do you believe that you can change someone??
yep.. i did already. =)

17. if you could get married somewhere, where would it be??
haha. i told my abang about my angan2 that i want to get married at Australia, at the Salaam Namaste scene, pat rumah Ambar and Nick. i like the scenery view from their house balcony(where they had breakfast). if only i can stay there...

18. do you easily give in when you are fighting??
not when im really angry..

19. do you hav feelings for someone right now??
yupyupyup.

20. have you ever wished that you could have had someone but you messed it up??
ummm... dunno.

21. have you broken a heart??
yea. my mum, teacher, fren(just had to turn him down).

22. if one day your bestfren fall in love with the guy you deeply in love with, what would you do??
if its just falling in love, then nvm. but not cheating on me. in the first place, i dont think anyone would fight with me for him. if there is a brave soul that dont mind getting involved in a terrible cat fight with me just for a guy, then i hope she can tahan all my aggressiveness. haha. btw, we're quite confident that noone would steal each other away. hehe. =P

23. are you missing someone right now??
yupyupyup. i miss those 2 days when i cried in his arms. noone consoles me like he does and he just makes me wanna cry more when he's around. i love all the attention that we give each other.

24. now you have to ask 5 of your friend to do this survey in their blogs. write down their name in the list below. tag them in their blog to let them know.
anyone.anyone.anyone.anyone.anyone. do if u want to. if not, dont do.

selamat berpuase everyone. im not fasting for these few days.. becoz of....you know what lah. hehe.

Happy Anniversary

2006-09-11T20:55:00.000+08:00

once again, happy anniversary to all you couples who are/have/will be celebrating the date that they become one hearts. hehe.. kae. first of all, to aki and iffah. congrats for lasting for 2 months. haha. next, to the best couple of all! cheyy... haha. saRaLi!! yay. they will be celebrating their 11-month anniversary tomorrow, on the 12th! yayy! another month and they will be a year old already. im so happy for them. haha! of coz im happy. =P

aniwaes, all the best to all you couples. and those who are still single, hope you find your mate soon. =) hehe..

2006-09-03T17:52:00.000+08:00

Yay! im back home from chalet with my relatives. actually im not supposed to 'yay'. coz i dont feel like going home yet. 3 days is not enough! the most fun part about it is all the photo-taking sessions we had with our cousins. yupps. and im proud to say that i've taken more than 90 photos using the digital camera! hehe. 90 pics within 3 days. thats a new record for me. but some of them are irrelevant and i think most of them makes up all the thousands of photos taken out of boredom and for fun. hehes. i think i shall put up a slideshow and let the pictures
do the talking. =)

Dear Hair...

2006-08-28T21:18:00.000+08:00

you've grown so long and so old already. i've been taking care of you for about 2 years now and you've grown so long now that im addicted to you. i love you very much but sadly, you've given me some problems. most of the time, you fall off for no reason. when im bathing you or combing you, you would always detach yourself from my head and fall. maybe you're already very weak. you either cant hold on to my head or you are too weak and break easily.

since a few months ago, i've been trying my best to take good care of you. i pamper you and clean you frequently so that you can last longer. but for some reason, you keep giving me problems. i dont know why other people's hair can last for so much longer than you. is it time i cut you off? this is a very difficult decision to make as i love you very much (as well as my money =P hehe). i love you and i cant bear to cut off some parts of you. also, some parts of you (at the ends) are already spoilt and dry. it doesnt look that nice and maybe i should cut off those parts. but im scared that you will be much shorter later. and i dont want it to be like that coz i love it when you are long. what should i do? should i just carry on taking care of you and let you fall off for no reason? or should i cut you off and let you be shorter? too bad you cant talk. if only you can talk, i can ask for your opinion. this is a very difficult decision for me to make. to cut or not to cut? i need help...

Sorry girls..

2006-08-28T20:28:00.000+08:00

abang said that my blog skin looks weird coz it's white. and it's the first time that im taking a white skin for my blog. the picture at the corner there, somehow reminds me of myself. coz rohaida has been saying that she hasnt seen me smiling for a long time. and nek rika has been asking me what's wrong with me coz i've been a little quiet lately. girls, sorry if im not that sociable lately. i know i've been clinging on to my abang. sorry for neglecting u girls, lately. there's just something up with my life these few weeks and i don't tend to mix around like normal when things like this happens. dont worry much about seeing my tears the other day. im taking things slowly and trying to be optimistic. when things are getting better, i'll resume to my normal self again. =) love u girls.

Singapore Idol

2006-08-26T21:52:00.000+08:00

nightmare after national camp. 2 days after national camp, the first day of common test starts. and so i had to rush into revision. the whole common test sucks lah! all the papers were like so super difficult. and expectedly, the whole level did badly. results are a total crap. imagine ur L1R5 drop from 15 to 23! that may not be a lot but its more than 20 and it is bad! the rest of the sec 3s must have done badly as well. its a little expected that i'll flung common test especially when i had to go for national camp at the very second before common test starts. anyway, i failed geog and hist elect. the only pathetic distiction is Malay, that is expected coz that is the only subject that i got an all-time distiction for.. even maths is not that good. for the first time, i got a pathetic C for e maths and B3 for a maths. paulina is even better. she failed e maths and got full solid marks for a maths! haha. that crazy chairman! bluek!

and NURUL is out of singapore idol!! darn! she shouldnt go out lah.. joakim should be kicked out of the competition! the judges have given very strong hints that he should just be thrashed out. but his stubborn fans just willingly part with their money and kept on wasting their money for a monkey who cant sing. hais.. wat have singapore done?! this time, i think the competition has gone haywire thanks to stubborn fans and all those who just cant judge properly. those who doesnt deserve to be out, has been out and those who just cant wait to be kicked out, is annoyingly still in! bleargh! hopefully after several reminders by gurmit and others, singapore will learn to vote wisely for the right idol. currently, HADY is the best! yayy! haha. i have a feeling that hadi will be the singapore idol coz he just deserves to win! but kirin told me something.. 'i dont think they will let another malay guy to be the singapore idol'. if its really true, then it doesnt sound good. i mean, why not just let him win since he's really got substance and talent? the thing is, he's still singaporean right?? why care about race?? if he deserves to be the idol, then he should be. if another person is no better than him and singapore prefers the other person to be the idol and not hady becoz of race, then it's not right. so what if the 2 singapore idols are malays?? okay. im not saying anything else coz this issue is a bit too sensitive. but anyway, im just hoping that singaporeans are aware that this is a SINGING comepetition and nothing else. pls vote for the right person, singapore. all the best to hady! =D

National Camp `06

2006-08-24T17:45:00.000+08:00

sorry for the outdated blog. for the past few days, i coundnt log in nor access the website, i dont noe why. and for the past few weeks, i've been quite busy. so that explains why i havent been updating for 2 weeks. :) finally now i get to update briefly...

firstly, the biggest event that i still cannot forget till now. National Camp 2006 on 10-13th August at Pasir Laba Camp. its a camp of all 10 UGs cadets from all over singapore and also some from other neighbouring countries (malaysia, indonesia, india, thailand, hong kong, brunei, etc.)

its a super big, huge, gigantic (call it wadeva u want) camp, comprising of over 1000 participating campers, excluding many other instructors and officers also involved. its held at a military camp but surprisingly, it is a very relax and slack camp, with unexpected treatment given to us and all the fun activities prepared. haha. the whole of 1000 plus campers are divided into 6 companies with 6 platoons each. i was in foxtrot platoon 1, with 30 people in my platoon, including foreigners from thailand, hong kong, malaysia, indonesia and india. each company have instructors from different UGs each. my company's instructors are from girls' brigade and our platoon ICs are ching yee and charlotte. luckily i was in the same platoon as verity and weezong but not shunhim coz he was kicked in another platoon. haha! my cousin fidah also went for the camp but only as first aider and not participant. her sister, kak nor, also went but as a NPCC instructor. hehes.

first day was expectedly super duper boring and dead. first day always make me homesick. all the time. it made me wanna go home faster. but sth made me happier and abit pissed off at the same time. the instructors led us to our bunks and then we were completely shocked! each person was given a bed with wardrobe and another cupboard! haha! at first i was happy upon seeing it but also a little pissed off when they told us to bring a sleeping bag for nothing. but it didnt really matter. i guess it was already very good to be given a previlege to sleep on a bed during a 3-night camp. hehes.

some activities that we did: shooting, paintball shooting, first aid, weapon handling, dragon boating, mountain biking, campfire, plane flying, rock climbing, indoor challenge, street soccer

the activities were quite fun except for the boring first aid. the most fun one was shooting. its just so nice! it's like playing arcade but more fun! if only redcross can organise shooting. hehe. fortunately, 2nd day onwards was so much much much much much much BETTER!! thanks to the small clique that was naturally formed between the 5 of us - me, verity, gek han(hougang, sjab), jerimy(bnss, bb), alvin(vs, ncc). we had much more fun on the 2nd day as there were more bonding and all the cheers started rolling by. luckily the instructors were aware of the boredom on the 1st day. so they made the effort to help us bond more. =D we laughed so much and so hard that we had stomach ache and wanted to pee so many times. haha. i miss those moments.
3rd day was even better. more bonding and even more cheers! by then, our spirits were just so high and we were doing even more cheers. and started loving those cheers so much. as the 3rd day went by, it was becoming more and more sad......to know that the next day is the last day of camp. campfire was on the 3rd night. more bonding between the ourselves in the clique only. we started telling stories and stuffs. and when instructors told us to be more enthu, we just became enthu and started shouting, standing and jumping around like mad knowing that it was our last night together. i must say that although it was only my 3rd campfire, i've never behaved anything like how i behaved that night. i practically shout as much as i can and jump and run and be crazy as much as i still can. i've never put in that much energy just for a campfire before. but we all certainly enjoyed ourselves.
the 4th and the very last day. the girls assembled at the parade square, waiting for instructions. meanwhile, some of them took the opportunity to exchange contacts, asked for signatures and stuffs. the F2 people started bringing down their camp t-shirt and asked people to write on them with a permanent marker. others asked for autographs on their notebooks and stuffs. and then i did something that noone in the whole company did. i asked people to write on the camp t-shirt that i was wearing then. haha! i think im a bit crazy but it doesnt matter. i got all the girls in my platoon to write on me, including ching yee and charlotte. the guys, only a few of them coz we were a little separated during that time. but luckily i managed to get my very old old long-lost pri school fren to write on my shirt. the last time i saw him was in pri 6 and i could still remember him but he didnt remember me. hehe. nvm.. then, before we were all split up into our UGs, we has our last session of bonding and cheers and also our favourite tribal dance called the bilibanjah. that was the most fun part of the cheers session. hehe. it was sad for charlotte to tell us to take one last look at all our frens. it was sad for us to separate. coz we know we had alot of fun with each other and we would miss each other and the camp and the cheers. remembering all the fun we had, helping each other, making fun of each other, teasing each other, make trouble together etc. i still miss the camp now. especially all the fun and laughter we had and all the cheers that made us so high. miss u guys.. love u foxtrot platoon 1. and not forgetting ching yee and charlotte as well who have gone through so much for the 30 little devils to bond and make the camp enjoyable. =)) F1 is really the best platoon in national camp! yayy!! =DD

Couples..

2006-08-08T18:24:00.000+08:00

firstly, Happy 1st-month Anniversary to Aki and Iffah. haha! finally dah one month eh.. baru one month.. ader orang tu this saturday on 12th August dah nak 10 months. saper lagi saRaLi ah. haha. tapi takper.. hope u guys last as long as us. =D hehe. btw, this month, saRaLi is gonna be abit sad coz on saturday they don't get to see or meet each other on their 10-month anniversary. its sad for them. but its just 10-month so its not that bad. kalau 1-year anniversary tak dapat jumper, lagi sedih seh... coz they're each other's first girlfren and boyfren. =)

me and my 'abang' have just found out something new today! after some time of sensing something fishy, we have finally witnessed it in front of our own eyes. that shariff and syafiqah(3F) are together. haha. i think we're a bit outdated but we wouldnt know these things coz we don't even mix around with these people. we dont know them that well.. so we wouldnt be updated about stuffs that are going on between these people. btw, we witnessed them being intimate on the bus. they were sitting in front of us. and so we found out that they're together. its a bit surprising to know that they're together(no offence).. hehe. aper nak buat...

Congrats Istilah & Faridzuan!

2006-08-06T22:33:00.000+08:00

firstly, happy belated birthday to Siti Nur `Assyakirin! yay. u're fifteen now. so grow up and go get a guy for urself! haha.
kirin (or siti as some ppl call her), is my so-called niece. coz she's my "brother's" daughter. and my "brother" is ali. yeah.. we all treat each other like siblings and children and niece and wadeva. hehe. kirin, hope u like the present that me and ur father gave u. u better appreciate it coz u dont know that we went through alot just to get u that thing okayy... haha. tak percaye, tanyer ur father. we had to go through alot of obstacles while trying to get u a present. so u better appreciate it. haha! tak lah. maen2 jer.. we're sincere, ya know... =P anyway, hope u had a wonderful birthday especially the part after school when we all pour powder on you!! haha. 2 years in a row, our dear kirin kena powder all over her for her birthday. kwang kwang kwang. haha. kesian... =)))

okay... the next big issue about recent events. yesterday, me, kirin, ali, rika, fatimah, rahimah and some sec 2 and sec 1 girls, together with cikgu suryani and cikgu azman to Bedok View Sec School. we went there to support Istilah and Faridzuan for a competition called the 'Bicara Karya'. it's about a book review, in a form of dialogue between the 2 of them. and unexpectedly, our school got FIRST in the whole competition! congratulations to istilah and faridzuan! it was so unexpected coz we thought that RI could get in first but it was so shocking when they only got consolation. well, once in a while, give others a chance to win also. haha. so they won the Piala Hawazi Daipi! yayy! rika was so hyper that she screamed and screamed until she actually cried! haha. tears of joy or tears of excitement?? i have no idea but it doesnt matter. btw, there was some reporter interviewing cikgu, istilah and faridzuan. and this morning, my mum said that their voices were heard over the news on the radio, Warna 94.2 FM. haha. okay. thats very good. and also, there was some news about them also on just now's malay news on tv. but i didnt watch it. my mum saw the headlines. i think tmr, there will be reports about it on the Berita Harian newspaper. hopefully, they will put the huge group photo and my face will be there as well. haha. yay! =))

another unexpected thing also happened which is........fauzy laily was there!! he was sitting at the back, with his guy fren.. and then towards the end of the whole thing, more and more students approached him and took photos with him, asked for his autograph, etc. rika, who was super duper hyper, also wanted to take picture with him. and after so many trials, she finally managed to drag me and ali to help her take photo with him. haha. in the end, i also joined in the photo-taking, including ali as well. haha.

2006-08-01T22:05:00.000+08:00

i thought and reflected. about people's lives. is this world getting more and more insane?? i thought of what my OA instructor said to me last week, during OA (GOLD) camp. 'Its good to be happy, you know. Coz a lot of people nowadays are very sad.'
its very true indeed. yes, we all know that nothing in the world is perfect. nothing at all. but just because of some flaws in our lives, we have to hate them that much?? what the hell is wrong with the world?? if you hate your life so much, why dont you just commit suicide? im not encouraging suicide. but im a little pissed by people's point of view on lives noawadays. they blog and announce to the whole world about how shitty their lives are, how they hate their lives so much and stuffs. dont you find that annoying? i find that these things are very common. people are never satisfied with what they have. they always think negative stuffs of themselves. i think this world lacks optimistic people. people hate their looks, their lives, their 'uncool' parents, their bitchy friends, their status, etc etc etc.. why cant the world just be more content with their lives and more positive?? it's a little sad just to think of it. that people nowadays are selfish and never satisfied with what they have. as a result, people are getting more and more upset.
u might think that i'm just like one of those people that i mentioned. i don't deny. and i also don't admit. yeah, nothing is perfect, including our lives. i admit that my life is not perfect, either. and i don't deny that my life is shitty. i might just be one of those saddistic people, always crying and always talking about their shitty lives. i don't deny that. i can be like that, but at least i don't view myself as that bad as some other people who can be worse than me. they think they have the worst life of all. they think they are the saddest people on earth. they think they're the only ones who cry every single day. i don't approve of such people. coz they're just making themselves feel worse. why be sadder than what u should be when u can make urself happier?? they're just doing redundant stuffs by announcing to the whole world that 'my life sucks'! is it even something to be proud of? is it something that u can show off? no! u're just making ur life worse than it is. and then u would show off how much u envy all other happy people around. why not just be one of them?? and stop making urself feel worse?

that's what people should do. be optimistic. think positive. never lose hope. dont waste ur time and make urself feel worse. u would end up losing out. once u get back ur smile, never lose it. don't let go of the happiness that u get, no matter how little it is. cry out all u want in just one moment and not keep it to urself and let tears drip slowly and last for a very long time. just keep on smiling and be patient and slowly, u can overcome obstacles in ur life easily. =))

2006-07-25T13:45:00.000+08:00

Artist:Daniel Powter
Album:Daniel Powter
Title:Bad Day

Where is the moment we need at the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one downY
ou sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day

(Oh.. Holiday..)

Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong

(yeah...)

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

this song is dedicated to you.
coz it reminds me so much of you.
coz you've always been complaining to me.
of all the bad luck that u receive.

if anything's bothering you, please tell.
dont only keep it to yourself.
you've been there for me as well.
returning the favour, i shall.

you remind me of this song.
it doesnt really matter what's going on.
im lending you a listening ear.
and for you, im always here.

2006-07-24T12:39:00.000+08:00

hey! back from Outdoor Activities(GOLD) camp now. and i shall blog briefly about this very memorable 3-day camp. :)

basically, these are the 14 names of the campers:
Azidah (S'pore Chinese Girls School)
Syafwati (S'pore Chinese Girls School)
Mardiyah (Jurong West)
Wei Yang (Jurong West)
*Bobby (Broadrick)
Kevin (Broadrick)
Mathew (Compassvale)
Farhan (Compassvale)
Hanisah (Compassvale)
Shyan An (Victorian)
Si Han (Victorian)
Deborah (Cedar Girls)
Yu Ting (Cedat Girls)
Sarah (TKsian) =)

*not real name =P

basically, the came is very fun and exciting and very memorable for us. made alot of frens and we so love each other. all of us here rock the camp so much and we just didnt wanna go home on the last day of the camp. it was just so memorable. here are some of the wonderful unforgettable memories about the camp. =)

slept in improvised tents called basha. the tents are door-less and frogs can jump in to sleep with u. now im missing it so much. =P
field toilet (the toilet we built in the filed). we have to dig the toilet bowl. and the toilet is tissue-less. have to use banana leaves. haha!
spaghetti as the first meal on friday night!
me, not surrendering hp and sms-ing my mummy at night. =P
not bathing for more than 24 hrs. =P
me, getting stuck in the toilet cubicle coz the damn lock is rusty and i couldnt turn it. but it was ok after that. haha!
chicken for 6 out of 8 meals for the whole camp. now we're all sick of chickens!
field cooking! have to barbecue 2 whole chickens and then we couldnt stop laughing coz we had to poke the chicken through the asshole! ouch! muahahahaha!!
campfire and the fireball.
competing cheers with the OA (SILVER) campers. we always win! coz we're just so darn united. =)))
the different and numerous cheers that we learnt.
the boat ride to pulau ubin. it was abit scary.
hiking! it was quite fun and very tiring.
the blue monster, the golden cookie, the 6 rubber seeds that farhan found for me! haha.
me and verity as the 2 blur DIs for the 2nd half of the 3rd day.
azidah and her very weird and funny laughter. she couldnt stop laughing and it sounded as if she had asthma attack. haha! then she had to be brought out of the room to calm her down. moral of the story, dont laugh too much. haha!
my mestruation came of the first day of the camp!! urghhh! but luckily my frens didnt make it too bad for me. =))

on the whole, the camp was certainly very enjoyable and memorable. i love my frens so much. we all rock the camp. and that's why the instructors love us and always scold the SILVER campers instead of us. haha. we all just rock, thats why. =)) looking forward to see you guys again during POC.
good news: i passed OA GOLD!! yay! now i can accred my juniors bronze and silver. =))

this is taken at changi jetty, after our hike at pulau ubin. all of us were sweating like a pig and stink. yet, we managed to crowd around like that. haha! =)